VaNeSsA

2010-03-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

Originally posted this on tumble but I didn't wanna spam people with personal thoughts but ahyways my tumblr add is the same as blogger except it says tumblr.com behind. Here goes...

Ive been doing quite a bit of thikibg lately after daddy talked to me about my results. Maturity of thought. I always thought that it didn't necessarily come with age or time, but I guess I came to realize that at this age we're still fIguring ourselves out. So I can't really say "I understand, I can relate to you cause ive been through that.." cause in actual fact Im jUst going through the same thing. If I don't understand nyself, I believe I have no right to say I unDerstand you! Just a rAndom thought cause I've been putting a fair amunt of thought into what im doig with my life, whether i'm ready for a relationship or whether at this age bgrs serve as mere temptations and distractions. And whether I really understand myself. I mean who am I, really? And who are you exactly? So who am I, precisely, to judge or criticize you when you're just figuring yourself out too? I mean really , no emo shit, we're all still figuring ourselves out and trying to sort out our priorities. Whether you're sixteen or eighteen, we're all still in the process of getting to know how the reality of situations, how the real world works. When we were young our loves revolved around our parents. They meant the world to us and to us whatever mom and dad said was right. You wouldn't correct them or tell them "its your fault" cause to you as a child parents never make mistakes. But now as we grow up we come to realize that our parents aren't perfect, they're wrong and thy have flaws, and that's why we learn to talk back. We also start to realize that there's so much more to the world than what we see on thhe surface. There's so much depth in a person, be it good or bad. And all these changes just become too much to handle. I guess that's pretty much when we start to gain our own insights, perceptions, views and opinion on things that actually matter to us, and not what is important to just our parents. That includes relationships friends and judging people. With so much to take in and absorb it's no wonder we explode, throw tantrums, show our attitudes.. And parents often ask us "you're a grown up person now. Why can't you be more organized?" but how can we,really. It truly does take time. And is it because puberty has ended that we are considered mature adults? As a matter of fact, no. It's really cause what we have learnt to do; is adapt and accept these conditions we live in and hence we are able to take in more at a faster speed and handle situations better. And this, my friends, is maturity.

2010-03-15T05:14:00.000-07:00

Past few days have been alright. Except.. gosh. grades. Don't even talk about it.
Anyways. Grandma hasn't been feeling well of late, super worried..
Pleaseplease keep her in prayer, alright? :)

School's been rather dull of late, but i know i really gotta catch up.
Investiture is on the 15th of April, Ex councillors invitied ;)

March holidays totally like school days. haha!
Wednesday having O lvl music master class.
Gotta perform :X oh no! I really hope it goes well :) Wish me luck! :D

Today had O lvl music AGAIN. tell me bout it.
I totally suuuccckkk at this whole thing. haha. Oh wells. too late to back out. $53 buckksss~ T.T

Tmr meeting charmaine to study, hopefully. :)

GAH! Hungry. cannot tahan. byebye. -.-

Girl, i'll really miss you. Remember that i'll always be here for you. :) If it's one thing i regret about getting to know you, it's not getting to know you better. Love you loads. :)

2010-03-06T18:39:00.000-08:00

These few days starhub connection has been reaaalllyy sucky!
It's awful. slow internet connection and really really weak man. :/

Anyways. for the first time this year, i ain't faking it.
Really been sick. Flu, cough, the works. Headache is da killa, yo~ X)
Yeap, but don't worry. I'm feeling alotalot better :]

Brought Matthew Lim to church yesterday.
& Hallelujah praise the Lord, he got saved. :D
yeah. Really wanna thank Matthew for giving me the oppurtunity to bring you to church.
I really hope it was a great experience for you.
Trust me, yesterday was a turning point in your life, you made the best decision ever;)
Also wanna thank Kenneth and Zi Zong for coming along with him, it was great. :]
hope y'all had a fun time at my church, and cornerstone will always welcome you back with open arms ;)
Sooo many lives were saved yesterday, and it was terrific. :]
Thank God for salvation at Cornerstong Community Church! ;)

Tomorrow is another monday. *SIGH* xD
Then again, i'd better enjoy school while I can ;)
I really hope i'll do better. Raelly gotta buck up and start studying! :D JIAYOU! :D
Okay, My aim is 9 Points L1R4. :X
English: A2/B3
Emath: A1
Comb. Science: A1
Comb Humans: B3 OR Lit: A2
Music: A2/B3 OR A math: A2 (highly doubtful bout reaching this -.-)
:D
:D
:D

Okay. March holidays gonna be a hit~ I hope :D
Already got plans to go out with Shan and Jaime go movie and makan <3<3
and plans with Vicky to go shopping :D
Friday (cross country) i'm not gonna go, i think :X I'll pro'lly go for lunch and chat with Don :D:D
I can't run, and i'm sick. Or at least i hope it lasts till friday :D
So many people have been going into NS
it's a really odd feeling seeing friends in pixellated, camouflage uniforms and no hair. xD
but it's awesome. :]
Since the time Wee Kiat went in till now, about a year, he's lost so much weight and looks really fit now. :]
Jiajian as usual, has pretty much always been fit -.-
Jasper just went in, and he's botak! but he looks better like that :x
Theo, Yan Xiang are all going in to army and that's like. woah
okay.. Daddy's nagging. darn it. T_T okayy. Byeee~ :]

past 2 months

2010-03-02T17:38:00.000-08:00

gosh. Really haven't posted in super. super. long. haha!
Nothing much has been going on but well stepping down from council board soon.
it's gonna be a bittersweet retirement.
It's gonna be super weird to see me name up there on a plague!
can't believe time flies that fast. I'm like. sec 4. taking o levels.
Hopefully I'll get into a poly or jc of my choice lah :D

The seniors going into poly will be starting school in two months.
Still worried for them! Don't get influenced, okayy!!

Today going back to SAC to visit. after. 3 years. :O
Haha. hopefully i'll get to see Miss Mong and Zhang lao shi! ^^
meeting celeste and spencer for dinner.. and supper (obviously spencer's idea)
Then later tonight everyone's gonna dress nicenice and go for the tkam play :D
Awesome-nesss ttm! :D
Lit is da best, yo~

So far results has been so-so, except for english. i just stunned there when i saw it. I failed english for the first time in my life! SAD FACE:( 10/25 for compre eh!
but other than that for common test.. Emath A1, Physics A2, Chemistry B3, Social Studies B4, English E8... Yup. that's about it. still alright, i guess.

Hope to get in touch with some friends soon, like michael! :D
It's really odd cause we've been through so much. like really weird events.
but now we're really close, only after he's outta the school -.-
Mike, we meet up for lunch and movie soon, kay? :D
Of course, already missing the 2009 grads. :(( hate to say it, but They were awesome.
Miss them loads, especially the OGLs! ^^

sec 1 camp 10

2010-01-30T08:05:00.001-08:00

Lazy to post. Zam ah zam always ask me to update. haha. Also nothing to sayyy!!

Well, sec 1 camp was funfunfun!! :D
haha. very tiring five and a half hours of sleep over two ngihts.
been telling like everyone!
Had like 14 hours of sleep last night. shiok shiok! ^^
The sec 1s loved it and got hooked to all the awesome catchy cheers and mass dance, it was great. :)
1/7 was funfunfun, noisy and playful. a handful, but they're awesome. :)
Good job, fal and soup :]
slept during camp, thank God the instructor was so nice! :)
Gonna realllyy miss the seniors.. :(
Next year gonna ask them back again!!! X)
love y'all loads. :)

You might find this stupid, but it means alot to me cause it's my frist step in change.

2010-01-07T04:44:00.000-08:00

It's a long post, so just bear with it. :]
We learn something new every day, don't we.
At the beginning of this year, i prayed to God that 2010 would be a year of change for me.
I wanted to have more confidence in what i do, and not be embarrassed so easily.
Recently, i was talking to a friend, who couldn't change his ways, and he was so frustrated.
After talking to him, it got me thinking.
So I asked myself "Am i worthy of giving him such advice? Who am I to give him such advice when I myself don't follow what I say? I haven't taken a step in change"
Thanks, senior. :]
But today I will, cause it's never too late to start.
Today something happened, and though i found it a small matter, it wasn't so to someone else.
That especially got me thinking about my life, it got me thinking about what i'm doing. It got me thinking about my new year resolution, and what i'm doing at all to acheive that. & suddenly a verse in the bible came into my head, and I realised, it's time for me to take my step of change.

Today, I wanna share with y'all what happened.
In the bus on the way to a polytechnic for a school visit,
I borrowed Afiqah's phone.
My genius idea of a joke was to switch my name in the contact list with a teacher's (I won't state her name),
and play a prank by sms-ing her, see her reply. Then tell her, It was me and i meant it as a joke.
What started of as an innocent prank came off totally wrong.
It was too big a prank, i went too far.
I'm not ashamed to admit my fault, because i know where i went wrong and why.
But more importantly, i understand that no one is perfect, and I make mistakes too.
This was a prank Afiqah herself once played on Destin, i believed she herself would be able to take a joke she played on someone else, maybe i thought from my perspective, cause I knew I would not have gotten angry..
But every person is different, and no one is to blame.
So i sms-ed her this "i'm very disappointed in the way you planned for the CCA open house"
Her response was "F*** sia" & celeste realised she was angry.
I quickly sms-ed her that i was kidding, and she simply replied "That's mean." when celeste grabbed her to hold her back from shifting to take a seat elsewhere on the bus.
We sms-ed her to apologise, but received no reply.
She was smiling, and i didn't realise she was angry.
I only realised she was serious later on at the polytechnic when she totally ignored us.
No matter how Celeste literally begged her to not be angry, she shook it off and continued to talk to her friends as if Celeste were invisible.
Back at school, celeste tried again yet to no avail. She panicked and kept begging till she broke down in tears. Afiqah said she forgave Celeste, but it would take some time. What more did we want from her.
I asked Celeste why she cried, and she told me the friendship means alot to her.
Me? I honestly simply didn't even try to beg her for her forgiveness. I didn't even apologise a second time. Instead i was starting to feel upset, and i didn't understand why.
& That's exactly what got me thinking.

I said rudely that she was overreacting and i didn't understand why a small joke got her so worked up.
She said that I didn't understand the pressure that was put on her during the event, so i had no right to assume. That was true, and i sincerely apologise for that.
This is what i want to say to afiqah, so i hope you read it, dear.

Fiqah, I treasure our friendship.
It's not that i don't feel apologetic, i really do.
But i also have to say frankly I was upset.
I was upset because I saw you push away someone's care and concern.
I didn't understand why It was so hard for you to forgive.
But I now know how much that situation meant to you.
Pressure? Don't get me started, i have my fair share, i do empathize your position.
Nevertheless, different people can handle different amounts of pressure, that's something no one can control. & i know that too. Yet i was rude, and so i apologise once again.
I wanted to ask you "If you treasure her friendship enough, learn to forgive & forget"
but i know it's easier said than done, so i won't push you.
I'll be very honest here, cause i think it's nothing to hide.
When i'm assigned a task like that, i think it an honour that comes with the power.
& with great power comes great responsibility. I just feel that if you're half-heartedly doing it,
you might as well just not. If you really treat it as an honour, but the pressure's too much to handle, that's why CCAs have VCPs and CPs. You're a team and you work together to share the load, don't take it alone. You'll be overwhelmed by the amount of pressure and work.
As a friend, I'd honestly want to tell you: Please treasure what you have, don't just cherish them.
When I was thinking, I realised a lot of things.
I was putting myself in Afiqah's shoes, but just in her position, not as Afiqah herself.
I wasn't upset because of what happened. I was upset she wasn't sincere in forgiving Celeste. I felt that meant she didn't treasure the friendship enough.
Dear, i know Celeste means a lot to you. So that's why I'm telling you all this and being very honest.
When I compared it with my life, I said to myself "If i were you, I wouldn't be pissed."
Do you wanna know why, dear?
I don't know if you realised, but you're soo soo very fortunate.
Allow me to illustrate.
You have a loving Clique, people who would always be there for you, always hang around you.
Your bubbly personality gets you acquaintances fast, and your trustworthy nature gets you friends.
Apart from your clique, you have amazing friends like Celeste, who would beg for your forgiveness because the friendship between you two means just THAT much to her. She doesn't need an end to the friendship to break down, cause she doesn't even want you to be angry at her for a split second.
Being thick-skinned, I'm asking you.. For a second please put yourself in my shoes..
It's not that i'm great, neither is it that i want sympathy or pity.
I'm just being honest and frank.
My life.
I have many acquaintances, yet very few who are really friends.
I'm so busy with council work and helping the school, I don't have time for my clique and i drifted from them. I don't even have time for friends.
My family? My relationship with them isn't great. at all. And I also have financial difficulties.
So.. friends? Clique? family? You name it, you have it. Yet, you don't seem to treasure it that much..
I'm not jealous, cause I'm very content with what I have.
I just don't want you to lose what you have out of anger.
Look.. It's my fault, and my idea. I sincerely want you to not ignore Celeste, cause you don't know how much it hurts her. You really don't..
Finally, i wanna say that I really am sorry. Your friendship means the world to me & i don't want you to be pissed with me. I'm sorry if i hurt you, but you know I have never had any intentions to.
Nevertheless, an apology is all I can offer. Whether you forgive and move on or just choose to hold the grudge, that's entirely up to you. Like i said, I won't push you.
So I sincerely apologise for what happened today, and yes, it's on facebook for all to see.
You can be very upset about what i said, and the attitude i seem to be giving you with this post, but i mean it with all my heart and soul.
I sincerely also want you to not be pissed with Celeste and not ignore her.
Perhaps to you, she's just 1 of your many friends.
but to me, every friend I have, especially if they want so badly to stay by my side, means really so much to me.
So please, treasure her. Cause trust me, It's a friendship worth to keep.
Love you, babe. I'm sorry.

A verse from the bible came to my mind. and it was "Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates correction is stupid" So please, if I'm wrong in saying any of the above of things to come, correct me. because i want to learn to love correction, for every one of it is a chance to learn. And from learning, i grow stronger.

The most beautiful word next to "love" & "us", is "forgive".
I don't know about you, but to me, "forgive" is such a powerful word. It means just as much as "love" and "sincerity". So don't say it if you don't mean it, because it'll just become a habit and lose it's meaning. People say "love is blind". To truly forgive is to no longer hold such anger and a grudge towards someone, because you love and treasure that person so much. Forgiveness. It isn't just a word, or just a formality. it goes so much further than that. It's a skill, and an art inculcated in you when God created you. I only wished the world saw it the same way. It's neither a casual word nor a joke, for with forgiveness, there would be 70% less hatred, anger, frustration, grudges and hence 90% less war in the world.
So you see, forgiveness is a powerful word, and a major key in peace between anyone and everyone.
To me, i think every forgiving person makes a difference in the world.

So how about you? Would you start making that difference and think the same?
& think about it, for those you hold a grudge against at this point of time, even Fiqah, if you are one. Did you.. really, truly, sincerely.. forgive them out of love? or was it just a formality? If it was a casual comment, I sincerely hope you think about it.. and reconsider. We are all human, and no one is perfect. We all make mistakes, even yourself. Don't drag it so please don't say "I'll forgive them tomorrow", because forgiving truly makes that big amount of a difference to someone and everyone. You really don't know what will happen tomorrow. Live every day as if it were your last. :)

That's all I had to say. :)

Today

2009-12-19T07:38:00.000-08:00

Went out with the cell group
Had cell group outing and steamboat!
My group 3 Vanessa(s) and 1 Eugene. HAHA. xD
funfunfun :]
Super funny :D
Played 3 stations.. ate celery. EEK.
And went to Celia's house to makan! :D
her house is nice xP
anyways. Cleaning up was like :O
Alot of dishes. Broke a bowl :( Sorry celia!
Me and BigVan = maid 1 & maid 2. xD
JiaJian super poor thing, after cell group still go to work till 5am! ><

Things at home hasn't been great. Everytime i'm home, i wish i was out. but when i'm out, i really do feel bad for not being home to spend time with my family. The feeling sucks. :(

2009-12-10T17:13:00.000-08:00

Monday went out with Qayyum.
Went to town to pass him some stuff and watch "New Moon"
Thanks Qayy, for the treat etc. :]
It was very fun and embarrassing. xDD
New moon isn't that bad, actually!
Then we went walkwalk and stuff, but didn't do muuch, the show was 2 and a half hours!
Later on met Naufal, Mus, Adi, Ariff and co. at the mrt station, They waited for us, but we left quickly after in the opposite direction, which i feel very bad forr! :(

Tuesdday went shopping with Yu shan and Jaime.
Fun Fun Fun. :D hahah.
Bought a skirt and a belt :]]

Today

2009-12-03T01:27:00.000-08:00

Today morning had tuition.
Overslept.
Yushan called me, thank you! ^^
hahah. but i was kinda grumpy la :x

then after that came back, took a nappy.
OH YEAH! On my way home! Taking 89, Slept.
missed compasspoint stop.
Wanted to get off at stop before Hougang interchange.
but i stoned and missed that too. XD
So from interchange took 27 back, MISSED MY STOP AGAIN!
Ended up at buangkok mrt station and walked back one bus stop from there. -.-
Sigh. Blur ttm. Michael's no better! XD

So came home napped till 2+. then woke up, snacked..
Then played piano, then used computer.
Web cam-ed with Fee for like. ever. Haha!
but quite fun luh. :]
kenna nagged by mom. Sigh. mp does hell to a family.
Anyways. That bloody.. nevermind. anyways. SOMEONE called to complain to my mother about me. Not happy tell me enough la, walao. Sooo irritating. ><\

Later should be going to fetch the Cambodia team back. Time really flies.
hope they had fun!
But having second thoughts. firstly, i'd be very sad. It reminds me of my own trip
secondly, celeste's phone is off, dunno if she's going :/

Outing with michael!

2009-12-02T01:06:00.000-08:00

Today went out with Michael and Hehan
Missed Michael loads. So was super happy! :]
We didn't do much, though! HH Came to meet Michael & I at macdonalds.
He reacts fastest when it comes to food. -.-!
Hahah. So We makan-ed. As usual, i was the target for the whole meal.
"No wonder you so short" -.-!! Whatever, guys. Hahah.
Then saw the 5/2 group. keep disturbing me! Especially Jerwin. Hahaha.
Then we went to Lavender to collect Mike's I/C. HEHE. The picture. X)
Anyways. So after we collected it, took MRT back. Mike and HH just kept teasing me about sms-ing.
I sms about 2000+ A month. Is that ALOT? -.-

Okay. So for the first time. I'm glad to be home. It's a stay-at-home-and-do-nothing day. I love it :D
Adi ajak me go relax at bedok pool with his friends. But kinda lazy. and ttold mama i'll stay at home already. ><
I haven't started on my homework! Quite worried. But oh wells. :]
I hope i won't leave it to the last week though :x
I think i lost it, so i'd better find it before i even think of how i'm going to complete it. -.-!

Changed skin & tagboard!

2009-11-26T07:14:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey. Must leave a tag okay! :) Restarted the tagboarddd~

Past few days made a lot of new friends. :}
Initially, the ones who allwaaayyyss disturb mee. xD
Esp mus, always say i jay walk -.- that was ONCE okay! X)
But anyways, they're a bunch of really nice guys actually :]
Been talking to Naufal, Adi, Zam & Qayyum (esp). Hahah.
Character and personality, all same same but different. Super cute. ^^

Veerrry fun people. :]

Anywaysss. Missing the Cambodia people loaaddss. They left on the 23rd of November 09 and coming back on the 3rd of December 09. :] I'll go fetch them! :D:D My sebrina, spencer, zafrul, qayyum, tze xin, diyana and sin wai! :) Wonder how they're doing there.. :(

Time passes super fast, i realise. ><
Next year i'll be sec 4. :x
Sigh. :((

Graduation night 09.
not too bad! it was quite a bore at the beginning. No surprise. it's not our grad night. xD
& not to mention i messed up my speech when i repeated half a line.
But i followed what Spence said. Just apologise and continue (Thanks, sista. love ya loads. :))
So after that all went well.
Received compliments on my speech, which i'm very much thankful for. :]
Esp, Mr kaur :)
Also, complimented on dress, but i totally don't agree! But thanks for the sweet remarks anyway :)
Thanks Aaron for sending me home :D
Took lotsssaa pictures.
Really will miss the graduatesss! Esp the nosy sec 5s. x)

This year didn't get to go Cambodiaa...
Don't even talk about it. The forbidden 'C' word.
You have nooo idea how depressed i am about it.
Mrs Ong said maybe go next year June. I was elated. seriously.
Talked to mom about it. & she DIDN'T AGREE. :(
but i've really never wanted anything so much. So i'll stand up for it this time.
Try my luck, cause i really really think they're worth it. :(
I miss chres so much.. the kids.. :'(
Okayy. rather not talk about it. ><

Had Hives 3 nights ago or so. :)
It's the most irritating crap you could ever get, seriously.
worse than CHICKEN POX okay! ><
It was realllllyyyy itchy and stuff.
It's like mosquito bties, but alot of them join together to form patches. and they can spread over your limbs. So it's digusting. ><
I didn't wanna go doc. But second day i couldn't take it. It was just. uncomfortable. itchy..
& when i stood up to go doc, i couldn't. I had like. rush of blood and my whole body went cold.
Almost collapsed!
I struggled into a cab and mommy brought me to the nearest clinic.
So they said i have hives... the chim name is.. ute.. something something. xD
Well it cause low blood pressure for me, that's why i almost fainted.
So just gotta take my meds on time :D
been feeling kinda tired thougghh :(
Anywaysss. They gave me two meds. Anti something and a steroid. and Calamine lotion :D
So i'm depending on it now to keep it off. But the doctor says i'll be alright in a jiffy. :))
So no worries, people. :D

Okieeee. Gotta go~ Post another time. Credits to ZAMEERUL~ For pestering me to update. x)

2009-11-11T16:54:00.000-08:00

I feel so bad for not going to school daddy seems like he’s hopping mad. And I’m soo dead. I’m sorry mommy and daddy! :( I promise that I’ll go to school tomorrow :) really! :( Sigh. Gotta do my own self study I guess. Feels horrible.

PEK CEK!

2009-11-05T05:45:00.000-08:00

I'm pekcek. Officially. To the max. I don't know what to do.
I don't want to hang on, but i don't want to let go.
I don't want to hurt anyone, but i can't just leave them.
I really wanna do better, but I can't give up my year of hard work..
I wanna not feel this way, but i just can't help it.
I don't want them to feel that way, but i don't know how to help..

Is there anyway to not hang on, let everyone be happy, help them, be there for them - without being the cause of mayhem, do well, and not feel this way all at the same time?

How now, brown cow? Sigh.

:)

2009-11-01T05:22:00.000-08:00

It couldn't get any shittier.
Anyways, decided to drop to subscience.
I'm hanging on. :)

CHINESE POST. COOL TTM BA! XD

2009-10-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today i received science paper. Failed. Chemistry. E8. 42. Don't know how i scored for physics. but i know i failed that too.

妈, 我知道... 我不够努力也不够用功. 不像别的孩子, 不像小时候的你. 对不起.可是我真的真的很累. 早就知道我作不到. 你可以说我幼稚,可以说我根本没你的话放在心上, 没把你放在眼里. 我知道, 那是我的错. 可是,有时侯... 你骂我的语气,对我说话的态度,让我感到很伤心,很害怕. 我最讨厌被你骂了. 如果不把你放在眼里, 你觉得我会被您的话影响到而感到难过吗?有时候我真的觉得自己很没用, 总是对不起你. 你常常说我不关心你, 只听爸爸的话只疼爸爸.好像我从来都没有为您着想. 那我呢? 你难道没想过我为什么会这样吗? 对你来说,只要是你做的你说的, 就肯定是对的. 你想一想吧.误会我时, 有跟我道歉吗?我知道我犯的错多得很.也知道对你而言,我的理由都是幼稚的借口.我不是不爱你.只是不明白您的想法.对不起. 我真的不行了.很累了.我只是觉得今天心情已经够差了, 最不许要的是你的批评. 我知道我这个女儿让你感到很失望.对不起.

我不喊痛,喊累不代表我没有感觉.
It does hurt.

Btw, Happy birthday to Aaron and Hui Han!

YEAH

2009-10-16T05:43:00.001-07:00

Exams are over! Hoorah! :D
But of course, this is only half.
I lost that battle half way through. haha.
It wasn't good at all ><
I felt really discouraged. & at times just wanted to give up. like totally just. not study.
Well, anyway I did kinda study. A bit.

Better enjoy till tuesday. haha.
Cause on tuesday, i'll feel horrendous. T_T

CAMBODIA

2009-10-03T19:47:00.000-07:00

Okayokay. Excited TTM!
After EOY examinations I'm going in to full blast!
Planning for prayer meetings, Cambodia trip AND councillor camp!!
It's going to be stressful, but very fun. ((: ESP Cambodia.
I miss them so so much! Today contacting the people there for accomodation. Pray hard will have luh!
Okay. So pretty much looking forward to end of exams!
Ohmygosh. A new year beginning soon.
Before we know it, sec 3s '09 will be sec 4s '10!! Ohgosh.
Gradding. T_T
I somehow feel prom won't be special or exciting. :/
But i kinda wanna go too. ><

Yesterday went to Grandma's house for mooncake fest.
We had a feast. [: That was nice.
And then I went to my uncle's studio to study whilst my baby cousins went outside to play with lanterns. haha.
My sister had every intention to study! Of course.. until they dragged her out.
haha. So I reached home pretty late? About... 11+, i guess. But it was fun, as usual. I lovvee having the little ones around.
yiyi is pregnant with 3rd child. Hoped it was a boy! but the results are out. Girl.
:/ But i'm sure it'll be just as fun fun fun. {:
Can't wait for her to be born! ^^

200th POST!

2009-09-23T05:27:00.000-07:00

okay. Well today I finally talked to Su Ying, and I felt so happy luh.
As in, like. so relieved to let it out.. [:
Love ya loads, SuYing.. :D

Okay. School was normal..
really gotta start bucking up for end of years!
AND on top of that my music! I haven't handed in more than 3 pieces since term 1. ah! jiayou. ><

All the best to sec 4s and 5s '09! :D Next year my turn. HOHO.

Dr Seuss

2009-09-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"

"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened"

All quoted by : Dr Seuss! [:

concert, etc.

2009-09-22T04:46:00.000-07:00

I'm so so tired today ><
Even though I hardly did anything!
As usual, i took cab. So I didn't eat. except for sandwiches and a juice box, many thanks to my darling Celeste. <3

Then I had CCA endorsement!
Which is major yay for me, considering it marks the end of CCA for quite a bit. [: Hoorah!
More time to study.
I can't wait to step down, actually. ><
Okay. So anywayss~
Went for the concert On Sunday night, went to toys 'r' us with spencer and don, super super ultra fun. And Funny. Made complete fools outta ourselves then we went to build a bear workshop to make a bear bear for erhemm. His name was ah boy! :D Super cute. ((:
The concert was not bad! :D
First time i watched wihtout performing. x)
Then went home and got crap. I don't even want to talk about it!

Yesterdayy

2009-09-18T20:22:00.000-07:00

Oh drats. Overslept again.
past whole week i've been taking cab. really gotta stop that!
I miss tampines~ :(

Yesterday was fridaayyy [:
I left class early.
Ms Kaur said I'd better get back on track, but she had faith in me.
thank youuu [: I'll buy her flowers after O levels. hahaha.
Anyways. Over recess I scolded the secondary 1s.
Oh the heartache. :/
But later on the heartache disappeared when Nabeelah complained to Mr Shafie about me the word she used was "insult". Like hello. It's your responsibility to mantain the basics. What an immature act. I was relatively disturbed by that. :/

Let's move on. :/ haha. After that we had the colours award. {:
there were a couple of white guys. <3
HAHA. Just kidding. One of them WUGLY, the other pretty alright. xP
Okay. So ANYWAYS. I stayed on till about 5.
We were in the councillor room playing cards! epic. [:
Nadiah was super cute. She kept thinking Ace came before Jack when we were playing stress. ^^
It was funny, cause we called farehann after that and everyone was screaming into the phone then he just hung up. :/ Hahah.

It's time to mug again, the End of year exams are coming up.
I really really hope i'll do well.
If i get below c5 for my sciences, I might just opt to drop to sub science. ><
Time really flies, don't you think? in the next... year and a month exactly, I'm going to be doing my O levels. then having prom night. :O
Wow. haha. To be honest, it's a mix of emotions. On one hand i'd lovvee to get out of PRCS. On the other, I can't bear to! The life, the friends!
I've been thinking alot about poly lately, and i feel super vexed. :/ I'm afraid of the bad influences i'll meet there and all. And friends? What if i find it difficult to make friends? Sigh. I hope it'll turn out well though. I might decide on JC over poly.
I've seen how changes in poly has taken a roll on the seniors. and i'm not quite sure I want myself to end up the same. But oh well. (:
I believe i'll hang on and pull through. [: No one said it'd be easy.. {:

I'll just have to prepare for the worst and hope for the best. {:
This sunday gonna attend a guzheng concert. for the first time, i'd be watching and not performing. haha. I'll be going with donnie & spence, pretty sure it'll be fun! Haha. :P If only I could book a ticket for celeste. :(

Irony

2009-09-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

Good things come for those who wait.
But is it really worth the wait, if you know it might never happen, possibly impossible?

Ironic, but true, don't you think? Not aiming anyone, by the way. Really. [:

Today

2009-09-01T02:47:00.000-07:00

Today was total slack day but later on i'm gonna do some studying. (: Must at least study one chapter of both sciences today to get the ball rolling and start revising for EOYs in THREE WEEKS. sian.

Playing msn games with matty now.
Fun ^^
hahaha.
It's retarded luh. You should try x)

Vexed.

YAY

2009-08-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty good way better than expected (:
Thanks so much councillors. Love ya loads
To teachers, happy teachers' day.
Happy belated birthday to Mrs Sheri & Ms Kaur. (:

I'm tired. ><

Rehearsals.

2009-08-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

Today.
Nothing much different, I went to school for rehearsal, again.
Started at 8.30am. Wanted to meet Pavithra at 7am. But I felt so bad cause something cropped up and I only arrived at 8am. Bought her breakfast, only to raelise she already bought. -.- So I gave one to Fiona. Then I didn't even eat mine, so me buying two was a terrible idea. ><

After the whole rehearsal, getting SCREAMED at like nobody's business, we all left. I went to whitesands with Hidayat, Sayang & Xin. [: Then me and Dayat went popular while xin went home. Zaf joined us later. Bought a pen for Mr Ng for teachers' day, hope he likes it. Really really appreciate all he's done for us. [:

Then I skipped guzheng class, which not to mention I still feel very guilty for.
Met my parents at Century Square to eat, then went for a bit of shopping.
I was totally not in the mood and just tried on and gave it back.
I didn't feel like buying clothes, but thanks for bringing me anyway, mommy.
Then went to Ink to buy a new school bag. It was expensive.. ><
I'd better take care of it. $39.90 ><

i came home and immediately SLEPT.
Fell asleep on the couch, no joke.
Acheing all over, man. ><

Tomorrow there's piano lesson....
How exciting.........
Just hope it'll turn out okay. Thing's are gonna be more relaxed after teachers' day.
Special thanks to all my darrlinngg councillors whom I love oh-so-much, whether sec 1, 2 OR 3 and of course my seniors, <3
After that there'll be a load off all your shoulders. Especially to the Excos involved, thank you so much, you guys have worked sooo sooo hard, and put your time, effort & SWEAT into this. (: Love y'all loads. (:

alsoo.. Happy birthday song!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YANNGG YIIII
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! (:
finally 15! (: All the best, dude! <3

STRESS

2009-08-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

things have been quite stressful of late, whether with school, cca, piano or councillor responsibilities.
With the upcoming teachers' day celebration, planned by the councillors, there's so much to do with so little time.
Deadline's on monday. & i'm trying to rush and juggle.
Teacher's all say i'm not coping, and it does hurt to hear that, when i''m trying so hard!
My piano teacher? she says i give her black face. Without a doubt, that's true. But I don't exactly like to smile when I get scolded, you see.
I mean think about it. Would you?
CCA? I didn't get any post. yeap. that's right. demoted. From Petrol second to ZeroHero. There were. THREE people without a post. Two of them didn't turn up for the interview and only one wasn't chosen. Hiphiphooray. Luck befalls.
As if.

So anyways. Teachers' day is killing me and the couchpotato disease is invading my body, yet again.
I don't do homework. I owe tonnes of it.
Basically I come home and I'm too tired to even touch my bag.
It's terrible.

Stress brings about a whole web of problems.
Mainly pimples. Awful, the outbreaks.
It also brings back my rock bottom self esteem, which btw is continuously dropping now.
Of course, matters of the heart. haha.
I didn't even realise I had this habit, and it's the worst of all my bad habits, which happens to already be bad enough as it is, as you can evidently see.

Nevertheless, the rehearsals with adriana and zaf sayang has been fun
from Glen's impersinations to zaf's dance moves, to Nisa's silly impromptu styles, it has been fun. memories i'll never forget as pres councillor.
It's the only thing I look forward to, as tiring as it may be.

Friends? i'm really not quite sure how many friends I have. Very few to confide in I realise. When I need a shoulder to lean on, or just someone to let it out on, I find myself having to think & consider who to sms, and might even decide against it. They have their own friends, own problems. So do basically i have friends? MANY. how bout a clique? Nope. Okay. At least a group of friends? Nope. No where close. But maybe a couple of confiders. It's difficult to even find time to be with them. but when I do, our schedules clash or they're busy with their own friends anyways. Of course I love them to bits, and they're always there for me. It's not with them, it's me! The self-esteem issues make it hard for me to trust people too. I trust them, but i do need to put thought into it before saying anything! i feel like a complain queen. Well, indeed I am.
But well, i promise it won't happen often.
just that too many things can cause mind blocks. I just needa type it out, just like how dumbledore took his memories out xP
Nah, basically I'm hoping to just relax and take it slow. Juggle my stuff and all (:

Okay. I'll update when I actually have time. haha.

2009-07-20T03:36:00.000-07:00

Heyy everyone.
Sorry, Haven't been updating for a while (:
kay so anyways.
Today was alright..
Of course Mrs Low was naggy, but that's so not anything new. ^^
Apart from that, Lessons were as per normal (:
recess was a hectic, chaotic disaster.
It was so difficult to chase everyone off. It was terrible.
Now I know how the seniors felt.
I feel like putting the juiniors on I/C (:<
But I can't do that.. ><
Anyways, So tmr going to see Mrs Sheri to improve the situation.
It's reaallly warm in class! & even now, I'm sweating like craaazyy.
I can't take it anymore!! T_T

I was so sleepy after recess. What Mr Kek said was cool though.
When you eat too much your body uses so much energy to digest the food that you feel tired and sleepy after that! So it's really important to keep a balanced diet. ^^ I'll remember that!
Last period of the day was PC and Fatin, Jaga, Jonas and I went around asking for money from the class fund for teachers' day. (: Okay so going into gerald's class was embarassing and I probably blushed ( I realise i blush really easily. Not because it's gerald. Happens when i get teased. All the time, no matter with who. -.- )

Then had NSW english. I totally tikam-ed because it was sooo stuffy i couldn't take it. I either fell asleep or my rash acted up and i'd be itching. So that's just messed up. haha!

At about 5.30pm left for home, took bus 89 with sherman, ROCKER! ^^
Had fun talking to him and stuff. We're punggolians and hougarians man. XP
Talked about sec 1 & 2. Brought back sooo many memories... ><
Oh how things change... :( But i gotta learn to let go...

Okay, moving on.

Teachers' day is my first big event and I realllyyyy hope it turns out well (:

Common tests starts friday. I'm not really scared, which worries me. because i'm not the least bit prepared.
i've already failed one chinese test, so that means my chinese is a sure fail!
I think i'm going to fail my emath test. that's terrible.
i HOPE my phsyics will be okay and history & english too (:
I don't even have to think about mathematics, i might as well just flunk.
I really gotta buck up and start preparing for eoys.

Gosh.. time really flies..
I'm going to be sec 4! Turning 16, taking O levels, taking piano grade 6, guzheng grade 7, my sister turning 21, last year in NAFA.
2010 will be a fruitful year. ^^ I'll be 16, completing Os, becoming piano grade SEVEN and guzheng grade EIGHTT!! omgosh. ^^
I've really gotta work harder. I think I am.. I hope.
But I can't keep doing this, slacking at the beginning and only bucking up at the end, every single year.. It's terrible. So start from eoys, i'll treat it like the start of a new year, so by MYEs next year its like prelims and prelims & Os would be my major exams.
It's obviously easier said than done.
I gotta put aside time, plan my time well...
honestly, I would say I can't wait for CCAs to end, then i'd have more time.
Really enjoyed the H1N1 break..
But nevertheless, add oil everyone. ^^

Okie. Gotta be a good girl and go do homework and start studying. haha!
Yes yes, i know you're giving that "yeah, right..." face or the "I'm sure..." face.
But seriously! I assure you. xP I'm gonna start NOW! :D
After i shower. I feel all stinky. ><
I'll post again tmr or something ^^

2009-07-18T09:20:00.000-07:00

tired.

2009-07-05T06:49:00.001-07:00

OBS was a very good experience! (:
I encourage next year sec 3s to go for it. (:
Shant elaborate and ruin the surprise. :D

So anyways apart from that, June holidays were too short!
Common tests postponed by two weeks
But i'm gonna start preparing now.
I think i won't do well.
but i hope I will (:

Haha. Okay. So presidency has in a sense been a breeze
In a bad way.
I really don't do anything.
I gotta think of something man. :/

today

2009-06-17T07:55:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty fun.
okay, so i didn't do work.
BUT!
I had rehearsal then spent the WHOLE day with spencer
till like. 6. 20pm!
haha! It was fun. Enjoyable.
We spilt everything out, every last bit of it!
Literally too of course. Me - my issues and spencer.. well.. his $6 lunch. :/
So we walked around white sands, chat chat chat. sat at super dog for, can you believe it, 3 hours!!
The person must've been tempted to chase us off.
We both didnt even have appetite, actually. LOL.
So we went for a walk, to the playground
Played the swing
and felt NASEOUS. the both of us.
it was terrible.
The weather and all. Gosh.
So we decided to go back in to have a nice cup of ice blend (:
Then went into white sands, walked around, sat and back to chatting.
at about 6.20 we decided it was about time to leave so we walked out and went our seperate ways
I remember our last topic was on prodigies. HAHA.
It was enjoyable.
Thanks, Sista!!
Didn't get any work done, though.
Now i'm sitting down trying to do my english. (:
I'm about a couple of words short but think I'm gonna leave it like that. x)\

Sebrina: Take care, darling! I'll always be here for you. Love ya.

Study date dat 2

2009-06-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

MICHAEL BUBLE~

Oh face it people, he has a sexy voice.

Okay! So today had rehearsal 1 and study date 2
Study date with Afiqah and Celeste of course. xD
1105 thing, you so wouldn't understand. xDD
So I managed to get some work done, thankfully. (:
But the rest not so much. So i really hope that tomorrow I can do more. (:
I did like 2 emath papers and some A math. (:
I really wanna complete my work. But at this rate, it seems almost impossible.
I keep getting distracted. ):

Tomorrow I have ANOTHER rehearsal. ):
Super last minute stuff. I Don't feel like going
Total waste of my time. ><
I wanna go to the beach!! :(
Maybe after rehearsal :D

Bought coloured hair pins today.
So amusing. ^^ HEEHEE.
Tomorrow study date 3!
I totally can wait for OBS.
Right now i really think its a waste of my time!

P.S. Get well soon, Yang yi! Rofl. Tc. (:
P.S.S. mike, michael buble is NOTTT gay. xD

2009-06-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

Today I didn't go for service.. Sadness. ):
Yesterday had tuition in the morning then went for guzheng class.
Asked sai and Celetse out but they weren't able to make it
so i went to Celeste's house with every intention to do my work. x))
Well, obviously when the two of us together, in a person's house
We CANNOT do work.
So we played guitar sang sang.
Talk talk
Laugh Laugh
Dance Dance
Made complete fools of ouselves....
& did just about... 5 questions of homework. haha!
It was suuupperr fun.
I laughed till my tummy ached!
UNAGI!
So anywaysss..
Today I've really gotta settle down and do sommeee work at least. [:
So that tomorrow I can meet celeste.
Go to a library and do work. :D
Hope to complete my work by.. tuesday.
which is almost impossible.
Those that need to be handed in by Monday of course.
Oh shucks. I still have yet to asked my parents to call my teacher.
Ah! they need to collect my report book! ):
Shucks. So worried. I really should work harder for this month!
Pray hard! ><
I sooo need a LONGER holiday. ):

TODAY :D

2009-06-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

this morning had tuition

So glad i actually woke up on time

introduced yu shan to my baby :D

Haha. (:
She sooo loved 'em :D
so anyways. after that had piano class!
And i have another class tomorrow morning!
I was falling asleep at the piano at lesson. ROFL
xD
I was so tired. ):

Talked to Albin after not talking for.. 2 days? ROFL.
Yeap. And Today Yang Yi left for Phuket.
Haha. have a safe trip, caveman! (:

School's starting in two weeks. how fast is that! ):
I gotta finish my work before wednesday! (:
I hope I can. (:
OBS is coming super scared! ):

today

2009-06-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

Today i spent the whole day cleaning!
If it wasn't cleaning, i practiced a little bit of piano and guitar.
I skipped the S.S. test. AH!
Hopefully i can get a retest. (:
but i guess its okay if i fail s.s. xD I've got music! (:
My aunt and uncle are here from china, the ones who rented this house to us. (:
Now talking to YY about cheesy pick up lines. *hair stands* HAHA.
Lazy to post. >.<

HAHA.

2009-06-09T10:17:00.001-07:00

YANG YI IS VERY CUTE!

Thats just to make you feel good, dude. don't take it to heart. HAHA. Kidding. x)

Okay. So today went for councillor BBQ! :D It was funfunfun
will upload the pictures another day.
I got dreeennchheddd!
And my 70 bucks. AH! Heart pain. :(
So we did BBQ and played with water guns! Ex-cos '09 yo.
haha! hope you all had a great time. Definitely a memorable experience. (:
I certainly had great fun. (:
Though the cleaning up and wasted food was...... :/
haha. Anyywayyss. there's always room for improvement.
love you loads, councillors! (:

Post-exam

2009-05-21T18:42:00.000-07:00

Pressie from Afiqah!! (:

Pressie from cheri! 8 years of friendship! :D

Pressie from matty! ((:

Recieved Belated pressies from Afiqah and Cheri hu.
Thank you so much, guys.. super touched.

I think tihs year's bday is pretty memorable.

very touched that so many people remembered. (:

Yesterday we had PET rocket, which was quite fun. (:
Launching was awesome. (:
I paired with Jaime to make our rocket. Called it Apollo 52. xPP
I'll take a picture and post it.

as fun as it was, the sun was scorhcing hot and we were dead beat by the end of it.

Sherman and jon were like sleeping during lunch! poor dudes. haha.

So after that still had two periods of lesson. Emath! LOL.

Ms wong is super funny. I love her facial expressions. PRICELESS. xP
So emath was very fun. Laughed till stomach pain. xD

After school went to library with Jaime.. (:
Had potato chunks. P.S. I still owe you $3, jaime. xP

Then went to meet Matty at WS after jaime left.

Accompanied him to popular to buy stuff, saw juniors there.

They obviously thought he was my boyfriend.

haha! He's not, Trixie!

So he passed me my Belated bday present. Thanks so much! love it. ((:

Then went home to collect stuff before meeting shan for tuition.

Tuition was super... LOL. Like We were all in a daze, all falling asleep. xP

So went back, ate and just Dropped dead on the sofa.

Today didn't go school.. :/

So now slacking at home.

Later got piano. Ahhh! Sian. ):

Start of this new chapter.

2009-05-20T05:31:00.000-07:00

Today marks the start of yet a brand new chapter.

Today I took over as president of the student council.

Today was aa day of honour.

Today.. was also results day. T_T

Gosh. Time really flies. In a blink of an eye, the investiture is over, my birthday is over...

MYEs are over, the results are back. soon it'll be the end of the year.

My results were terrible, i don't know how i'm going to break it to my parents.

and i'm so afraid that they will stop me from going to church and cell group.

I will CRY! ):

So here are the results...

English : 60/100 [B4] )):

EMath: 75.9/100 [A1] :D:D

Amath: 53.75/100 [C6] )):

Chemistry: 53/100 [C6] )):

Physics: 47/100 [D7] )):

Chinese: 56/100 [C5] :/

Literature: 56/100 [C5] )):

SocialStudies: 48/100 [D7] )):

Music: 70/100 [A2] ((:

I guess I'll just have to work harder...

But you have no idea how close I am to just giving up. ):

*pray*

a familiar mix of emotions...

cell shots. :D

2009-05-17T07:50:00.000-07:00

16th May 2009 :D

Me, Susan & BigVan :D

Me and judea!

Me and Pei Jie!

My Family.. (: Gen 3.6 <3>
Thanks so much Zone 3! Love you all (:

happy birthday to us!
happy birthday to us!
happy birtthhdaaayy to Pei jie, Vanessa & aletheeaaa;
Happy birthday to us!

Loves! :D

AWESOME!

2009-05-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

Card from Pei ying. Super cute!
Note from cell! In front is like a bible quote. :D

Card from winnie. :d
From Cell!
From Cell group! Esp Winnie, of course. :D
from jie jie
from jie jie

Today was awesome.. (:
Went for Zone meeting.
Like 3 or 4 cells together is it? Whole of east zone. which was quite alot of people!
was late though.. ):
But the message was great!
And Pei Ying came!
Super fun we hung out and chat and ate.. and ate.. and ate. HAHA.
Then donavon asked everyone to gather.
& they brought out a cake to sing happy birthday to me and pei jie.
Which was soo super sweet.
I was very surprised, and touched. (:
Thanks, gen 3.6. The whole zone sang for me luh, which was so nice. (:
Then ate birthday cake, got pressie from winnie from the cell..
Hung out, watched cell group play basketball friendly match with strangers, super cool. Haha!
Well, at least they made new friends. xDD
Took unglam shots and all. Rofl!
I'll upload the pics we took then another time, or on facebook. (:

150594

2009-05-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!
Just wanna say a very very ultra big thank you!

for all your wishes and all the wonderful pressies. (:

I had a greeaat time celebrating my birthday. (:
Special Thanks to:

My fanily, Celeste Lee, Sherman seah, Shane Goh, Albin Lye, Raphael Mok, Matthew Kek, NurAfiqah, Lee Yu Shan, Jaime Yeo & saisai kwa! :D:D

for the gifts, special thanks to:

Celeste lee, Laura Chan, Jaime Yeo, Lee Yu Shan, Sebrina Kwa, Albin Lye, Jie jie Mel, Victoria Wee, Gerald & E e May! :D:D

For contributions to Ipod fund,

Parents, both grandmas, Aunty Phil and Ee may. :D:D

And of course to everyone for all the wishes! (:

Love you all loads. ((:

Yesterday morning, had to go to sch early early in the morning, for me early luh.

even though. I DIDN"T HAVE ANY PAPER. xDD

Then saw Yushan & saisai who gave me a pressie, thanks dudes~! (:
Then went to mr choo, who shot me like crazy.. followed by councillor meeting..

announcing president etc.

Then went to meet celeste to get my "chemistry homework"

Which was a teddy bear, necklace and two pairs of ear rings. thanks to celeste and laura. ((:

Had lunchat superdog, super retarded la, celeste! xD

Then before i left celeste was like "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

So I was going to reply thank you, but apparently what came out was "Okay, well, Happy...." LOL.

so i ended it off with "...day!" LOL. rofl. And i was still laughing when i went up the bus;

People were staring at me. so embarrassing. haha.

Then later on went home to put down stuff and left to meet albin to collect the big big stuff toy,

from the "councillor board". THANK YOU!
Left to meet yushan and jaime at kbox, k-ed for an hour and a half before the woman came in and said
"is this for 2 or 3 people? If you stay for more than 10mins, you have to pay the normal price"
So I just replied "oh i'm just leaving, thanks. (:" And they jsut let me off! So i didn't need to pay. xP
After that left for piano, got scolded by teacher. grr. bad mood then scold us. =.=

Recieved a gift from vicky and ang pao from her mom, thank you so much. (:

Then went home, to celebrate with family! Had steam boat, then chocolate ice-cream cake

Received pressie from jiejie, a charm necklace and whole set of like 8 pairs of earrings? all music notes. :D
thanks, jie jie.

THANK YOU TO LAURA CHAN!

For designing and making my sister's brithday present. Its soooo pretty. :D
And she loved it so much.

I want one too!! hahahah. :D

Pressies!

teddy bear! Huge ain't it?
Ipod Fund!

From Jaime

Planner from yushan and jaime

From Gerald

From ee May

Necklace from vicky

From celeste and laura

Shoes designed by Laura!! (:

Shoes designed by Laura! (:

Changed url

2009-05-05T02:54:00.000-07:00

The end of tragedyofthebrokenhearted!
But every end is the start of something new. :D
So here's the new blog link. Not so emo, ya know. x)
yeap. throwing away the old stuff, like it's not like that anymore. (:

Ytd saw my CA1 marks, which as a matter of fact was uber disappointing.
I really wanna do well for my parents, myself and my cell group. (:
I'm gonna try really hard and do all I can. ((:
HOHO. maybe next year get the improvement award thing. HAHA.
Kidding. But i really wanna do well, though! ((:
I've been getting pretty stressed and tensed up.
keep me in prayer ya? :P
Tomorrow's the start of the examinations in chunks, so thats scary. x))
All the best to everyone!
you guys don't need luck man, you've got skill (=<>

Hope everyone will do well! (:

I just really think it isn't nice to badmouth about people, it's ungentlemenly..
It's also not very nice for people to curse and swear, especially ladies! So maybe you guys wanna watch out a bit, yea? (:
and don't say "omg", it's rude!
Gosh. it's not that i'm all that good luh. I may not say it, but sometimes I do think it too, I really wanna change my bad habits! okay. HOHO.

GOALS! first time i'm doing this man.. LOL. (excluding church ones for the time being. (: )

Goals:
Score well for examination
Have courage to tell people to stop cursing and swearing
Tell people to not say omg anymore!
Change for the better, mainly in;
-Attitude towards family
-Cherish all my friends. (:
-Don't ever badmouth, or even think of it!
-TIME-MANAGEMENT!
-PRIORITIES
-Don't even think swear words
-SELF-DISCIPLINE!

pictures

2009-05-02T09:25:00.000-07:00

TODAY :D

2009-05-02T04:49:00.000-07:00

This morning kinda woke up late.. went only for half a lesson for tuition ):
Then got the "i-told-you-so" nagging from Shayne. Haha. Worse than my father man.
So next friday i'd better sleep early. for my own good, and for the good of my ears and eyes. ^^

After cell went for guzheng. Haha.
The teacher was okay today. retarded, as usual.
She said everytime i come the next week no lesson one.
Like. whatever~ hahaha.
So. YES! Next week is 5th week, no guzheng.
A day off. :D

After guzheng went for CELL GROUP! :D:D
Oh ya. so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RYAN :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RYAN :D
HAPPY BIIRRTHHDAAAYY TOOO RYYAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNN~ :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! :D
MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESS YOUU *ACTIONS*
MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESS YOUU *ACTIONS*
MAY THE GOOODDD LOOORDDD BLEESS YOOUUU~ *ACTIONS*
MAY THE GOOOODDD LOORDDDD BLESSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUU~~ *CLAP CLAP CLAP*
Haha. One year older, one year more mature, but still just as blur. xDD HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
You'll always be part of our family, and you mean the world to us, we really appreciate you! :D
Had alot of fun in CG, as usual! :D
But don was moody. ): So 3.6, keep him in prayer! haha. ((:
Priscilla preached today and she was very very good.
It was awesome. (: And it answered alot of my doubts.
Then she prayed for us and stuff, with donavon too. that was very nice. :D
After that we ended off, and i did my studying and everyone else did whatever else.
Like playing the soccer board thing, daphne on piano, lianghui and his nonsense. xD
Super funny. (: And thank you Xuan Jie, Pris and Jordan Cheong for teaching me S.S!
& Jordan for offering me his notes, if it can come in time for my exams that is! lol.
P.S. Jordan and Shayne, don't act fierce! =_=!!
P.S.S. Raphael and Shayne, I don't act cute. its natural. HAHA. No luh. Kidding. But you really find that I act cute?? Lol.
Okay. So study study. crapped with winnie, as usual. super funny. x)
she's uber cute. My shi fu! :D
& finally, time to go, packed up cleaned up, liang hui act strong... LOL.
Then everyone left for WS! except for me, winnie, daphne, xuan Jie, Nga Lam and a couple of others I guess.
Took us some time to realise Shayne was actually long gone since during pris's preaching. HAHA. Not that he's not important to all of us.. then again.. haha. kidding kidding. (:

In conclusion, meaning & fruitful day. yet another day to be thankful to God for. (:

note to self:
be a good daughter, be fillial
As much as my friends mean to me, my family should always come first..
Father, I just pray that you give me patience and understanding...
Flee from temptation; prioritise; Tame my tongue; He never forsakes anyone.. (:
I'll get to know him more and more each day...
Not just as my God, not just as my Lord, but as my father; my heavenly father.
Keep everyone in prayer. esp. Don, Su Ying, Sebrina, Celeste, Winnie. As well as all CG members, family, friends.
Basically everyone, actually. XP

study

2009-05-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

Today had study date with sebrina and shan.
But hehan, jordan and donnie came along. haha.
Quite fun luh. I felt like i didn't do enough..
Got dragged to tampines 1 to relax a bit. haha.
It was fun, cause i never been there before and stuff. but okay luh. i still think studies should've been priority. haha.
Super scared for Mid Years. (:
So anyways. After that i went to meet my parents at ehub. ate mr chicken rice..
Then went to walk walk, go dte, then go arcade but didn't play. then went coffeebean.
and finally, cabbed hhome :D

okay. so 4 papers down, 9 more to go. Jia you people! I'll pray for you all. (: JIA YOU. :D

(:

2009-04-25T08:05:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THIS STORY.. (:

LOVE THEM TO BITS!

S3 O LEVEL MUSIC! ((:

ME AND XUAN
SPEECH NIGHT

ME AND ALICIA
SPEECH NIGHT

ME AND SAI

SPEECH NIGHT

THANK GOD (: <3

YES! I AGREE. (:
"Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail”

Okay. ultra paiseh during cell. don't even ask. x)

Anyways, haven't uploaded pics for super long. HAHA.

And lately been moodswinging, like since ytd.
Its terrible, i hate moodswings. ):

Anyways, had alot of fun with cell, as usual. <3>

HAPPY EASTER!

2009-04-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

Today's cellgroup was quite fun, Don's message was good and not to mention ultra funny. (:
Guzheng class is noott going well man. I'm like. invisible in class. Lol.
Anyways. whatever to that luh.
I think i've been having moodswings like the whole day.
& still, i'm happiest with the cell group. Lol. The game was fun. but i got stuck. but it was fun.
I hate memory games!! hahaha. Drats man, stm. hahaha.
Okay. Then went to friend's place. Quite fun luh. quite high.
Yeah. but i strongly encourage you guys not to drink!! haha.
so tomorrow's easter sunday, but i can't even attend church.
Daddy doens't allow. ); But its like. EASTTER~
):
so gonna stay at home and do all my homework and start studying for mids. Scared scared. haha.
Gosh. Suddenly miss my tampines house super badly cann. ):
and i WANT AN I TOUCHHHHHH~ hahaha.
Okay. But i already have what i need, i shhouldn't ask for mroe! I'm gonna save up for the itouch, though.
Or work hard for mid years and perhaps ask my parents to pay for half! (:
haha. I wanna save back all the money i lost. but its reeallly difficult. ):
Monday boring school starts again ):
i can't wait for june holidays. Or for CCAs to stop for Mid years. LOL.
Stepping down in a year's time. Yeah man~~ haha.
Quite tired luh, actually. haha. okay. won't blog much longer. (:

take take take it all! take take take it all!
take what?
I dunno. just take la!
Take take take it all! take take take it all!

HAHA. funnayyeee.. Gen3.6, you'll know what i'm talkin bout. Super funny. xD hahaha!

GOOD FRIDAY!

2009-04-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

Okay. So today we commemerate the day He died on the cross for us.
Without Jesus Christ, there wouldn't be us, nor us being where we are today.
So really Thank God.. (:
For what's he's done, doing and going to do for us, cause he'll never forsake us. (:
Both christians and catholics! Today just take a couple of minutes to think about what Jesus has done for us, the reason he died on the cross for us, and just thank Him for all he's done. ((:

Okay. Apart from that. (:
Today i spent the whole day with my family, that was pretty fun. (:
No nagging whatsoever today, except in the morning. (:
We went to Bugis's new mall, Illum. Watched the movie Mall Cop.
Not bad luh, pretty stupid but quite funny. (:

Speech day ytd was quite fun luh.
(: Performance and stuff. wah. I saw the super ultra pretty side of li xuan. :D
Super pretty when she dresses up. (:
And of course the rest too. But super seldom see xuan dress up ma. xD
The performance was okay. Cheer up, yushan!! Only a few mistakes ma! (:
You guys all did well, really! :D
And thanks to ms ho luh. Put in time and effort. and the candles made a great addition. :D
After speech day, quite late. left for buddy hoagies.
Super coincidental, met zhangmin baobei they all there. haha. They were eating i think.
We were havign dessert. actually sat behind them.
But the.. table was very low. then with our dress we scared.. you get it? LOL.
Yeap. so we moved to the table in front. then they left. =/
Wishing ZM baobei all the best for the case. (:
and Vanetta!! Pang seh 3/8. ROFL.
Okay. overall it was an awesome day.
HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY YU SHAN!(belated)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING YUSHAN~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~~ :D
Wishing you all the best. :D
We'll always be here for you. (:

I don't really like having best guy friends luh.
Not boyfriend but super close.
Its okay if you're a girl. i can be best friends with you for life!
But. guys? I'm a girl, and i'm not really very comfortable about it.
Esp when guys get very close to you and they tend to really care about you and protect you.
I mean. i can feel how much you love me, as a friend of course. and i really appreciate it..
I like having someone to talk to and all, but. you know?
and this isn't the first time its happened, it happened i think twice?
And i feel very bad and i know you care and all but. aiya i also dunno how to explain this feeling.
I just dont want to hurt you.
Good friends are alright. aiya. forget it. i also dunno how to say.

Okay. REST.

2009-04-08T04:16:00.000-07:00

These two days have been like. Super tiring.
but yesterday and today managed to go out, so thats cool. x) haha.
Tomorrow's speech day. Oh no. Dress.Solo.Performance.Stage.VIPs. Freaking out can!
I gotta go practice later. hahaha.
Okay. Nothing much to say actually. Lessons? Getting better. (: After being shifted to the front. haha. :D Okay. Blog another time.

Trusting God..

2009-04-01T04:05:00.000-07:00

Personally, i don't trust very easy..
But.. okay. This I really want to do..
with the upcoming evangelistic meeting, i'm really afraid that if i invite the people in the cell, it'll totally change the bond we have. No offence. A bit like CHC cell groups. =x hypocritical and all.
So i've been feeling very insecure lately.. ):
I also know my friends well enough. And i know what kinda guys they'd go for, exactly like what shayne and jordan are, even my cell leader.
I'm really worried they'll come for the boys.. ):
Gosh! Okay. I really hate the thought of it. It messes with my head.. ):

Shayne said that time, to just trust God.
& i really think i need to do that..
My own selfishness has got the better of me..
wah! Its really difficult for me..
So i realy got to trust Him. Pray hard this will all turn out okayy..
I guess if they're really serious about joining, before they go in i'll just talk to them about it first..
): ): AHHHH~!

Today, i waited outside the house for half an hour only to find out later my grandma was at home anyway and just couldn't hear. I really need patience. cause this really annoyed me.
The way she talks really loud, the way she can't hear..
but in my heart i know its not her fault, she can't help it. and she dotes on me like crazy.
And i feel really bad..
but i can't help it!! urghh!!

save me save me save me, please!!

Today's chinese class was very fun.
And tmr's the evangelistic meeting.
Pray hard it'll be a success...
Super tired these two days and its getting me grouchy and easily annoyed...
So i really need to get some rest! rawwr~
I'm not angry with anyone luh, its myself rather..

2009-03-28T10:26:00.000-07:00

The show - lenka
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause its to much, yeah its a lot
To be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs
And synchronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
they've got a ticket to the
show.
Yeah, I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
dum de dum, da dum de dum
and just enjoy the show
da dum de dum, da dum de dum
and just enjoy the show
I want my money back (3x)
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back(x3)
Just enjoy the show

I forgot what i wanted to blog about. T_T
hahaha. Oh ya oh ya. Well. Today was alright. (:
had cell group, tuition, guzheng class was terrible as usual. x)
i'm in love with alot of songs now. =_= I don't know why. hahaha.
Suddenly not exactly looking forward to my darling FLH tomorrow, i don't know why? ):
Just lazy to go. haha. but i still will, i think.
Oh yeah. Audacious band (christian band) is awesome. ((:
Aiya. i can't remember what i was going to say. forget it. haha.
Anyways, i'll post again when i remember. x)

today?

2009-03-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

okay. Today was pretty fun, but got into some trouble. xD
Morning, got caught for socks by HT. grr la.
Then during SS got sent out with my group for not doing the group work seriously. xDD
but it was fun outside. hahaha.

Then after that had servant leadership. that was alright. The games quite fun. hahaha.
Stupid seh. and the guys were probably haviong nose bleeds staring at the trainer. haha!

Yesh, tomorrow is friday, thank God. Hahahaha.
Drats. just realised its gonna be long. haha!

Woohoo!! So happy. Sunday FLH is gonna be in Singapore. like. that's AWESOME.
Then Monday they'll be on CSS. but probably can't make it.
i'll try though!! :D

haha. Today started giving out invitations for "evangelistic meeting" Hope its a success! *pray pray pray*
Haha. but sadly, couldn't get guys to come. trying!! mann. so difficult. haha.

Did super badly for CAs, got knagged at for an hour and a half by parents.
Daddy saved my life, as usual. Haha! (:

Nothing much exciting luh. ):

I gotta stay focused. (: three more terms till EOY, two crucial years, one crucial exam. O levels.
recently, i kinda have my mind fixed on Polytechnic. but i'm still unsure. (: wanna have a decision by june so i can work towards it. I don't wanna have anymore distractions! *pray hard* haha.

I gotta trust God, that everything's gonna turn out fine...

FUNFUNFUN

2009-03-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

Going out with cell has been like. the best outings ever. (:
They're really like family to me, and its great.
Wanna thank all of Gen 3.1.6 for that. :D

So today went caleb's house, 7 of us. My sheperd wasn't there. ):
But it was still fun. The shopping of food and stuff. all super spastic. x)
very fun. The spaghetti was a terrible mess....
from the diluted soup to the... funny meat. hahahha
The whole process of it was great though.
so many thanks to caleb. :D
I did some of my work, and jordan and shayne were... trying to help me. =_=
yeap. but it was funny.
We had ice cream after dinner.. jordan splurt choco sauce on caleb's beanie which was a major booboo. The beanie was very big. he brought the whole thing to the kitchen and put that small part under the tap. =_= Hard to explain, but it was really spastic. Super fun. :D

Then discussed about Pasir Ris crest, how we can evangelise. (: So that was cool.
And did prayer, and one song.. Sharing. stuff like that. then went home.
got lost. xDD but i got it in the end, okay! :D

Yup thats all.
But i was quite tired today. at the beginning. and in the middle i had a very oozy tummy, felt like puking. ):

but overall was FUN. :D

Cell group

2009-03-14T19:14:00.000-07:00

Haha. yesterday we went to see Shayne and Jordan perform for "zero to hero".
It was quite cool. and they were not bad. (: Thery got 3rd place! proud of you guys. ;)

Been relatively stressed out of late, whether academics or such.
Going to cellgroup helps me relax and makes me feel alot better, aside from my other friends who are also always there for me, of course. (:
Had a blast ytd with donavon and the rest of the cell.
No regrets. xD
They were really ncie and paid for my taxi fare. =x
Cause it was very late and daddy didn't sound happy.
Special thnks to donavon, Shayne Tan, Jordan Cheong, Susan and Vivien!! (: Love you guys!
But it turned out when i reached home, they didn't scold me about coming back late at all.
Of course, i did get nagged at as usual. For an hour and a half. T_T
SMS-ed Don, Shayne, Jordan, Susan and vivien to tell them i was home.
As usual, 3 outta 4 replied. =_= Which means Jordan didn't reply. hahahaha.
Don said that they're concerned and its for my own good and stuff. and i gotta be a good daughter. So yup. (: Its true la. just that sometimes, i find i don't need certain stuff to be said, when i'm feeling bad enough. But its not their fault. (: Thanks, don. (:
All of them said that i should go home earlier next time. Rofl. but i just assured them, cause iot really had nothing to do with it!
haha. But i wanna thank Judea, Kazreel and Jordan's parents too! They offered to send me back. but i felt super bad. Its not very nice to have them drive all the way to hougang. Thanks, though, aunty and uncle! (: It was very sweet of them.
Overall, as usual, cell group was good, including the message pris shared about death of the flesh. it really relates to me. (:
Nursey ( Caleb ) wasn't feeling well. So get well soon! (: But still had the energy to be a goofball, as usual. (; Haha. Could tell that Don and him were both desadddd tired from church band practice.
Sebrina isn't feeling well either, so keep her in prayer, please! get well soon, dear. (:

Lord father i just pray that you bless su ying.
through all this trials that she goes through,
father lord i just pray that your holy spirit be upon her to give her striength and grace,
The determination and courage to stand up for what she thinks is right, for her own beliefs.
I pray father lord that her parents hearts be softened, and she'll come to accept Su ying's religion in time to come, so that she'll be able to attend cell group and service.
Father i just pray that you grant Su ying with patience and understanding, that through these trials she'll come out stronger.
Father, i have faith in Su ying, that instead of backsliding, father, i pray that her faith in you and her passion for christ will continue to grow stronger.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
my Cell group's like a family to me. So thank God for them. (:

just yesterday, my great grand aunt passed away. ): My grandma's cousin.
I can tell she's really sad. ): So I'll keep her in prayer. :D

Overall, i think this march holidays is a chance for me to unwind, let my hair down! but of course, not forgetting, its a chance for me to have stronger bonds with my family and friends and catch up with my work. (:

New year, New rules, New pressure, New stress, New timtable, New phone

2009-03-01T00:42:00.000-08:00

Its been pretty messy since the start of the year
From the punishmetns to the detentions and responsibbilities to leadership.
Cell and church has really been helping me.
I didn't do very well for the first Semester, but i'll continue to work hard.
The school also has some silly rule. No camera phones.
So after hiding it all ove the place for the past few weeks, i actually find non-cam phones quite nice.
So i decided to buy one.
KP 105 or something like that. Its pretty cool. Haha.

The graduates from gen 3.6 have been awesome, they've been coming back to school and stuff.
Hopefully the cell will get bigger. haha.
Anyways, I've started to lead this mini-cell in PRCS for believers and to bring in PRCS non-believers.
So hopefully that will turn out well too. (:

Its been realtively stressful with my long hours and tight schedules.
I hardly have time for anything, not even friends
And i'm not allowed to go out with them cause mom says i go home late everyday.
So thats pretty messed up.
Trying to get used to it. :D keep me in prayer!
I'm intending to quit sunday class. But i feel pretty bad. in a dilemma. help! T_T

Been talking to Michael (matured alot. :D) and Matthew lately. They're nice people. Pretty fun.
Haha. Of course, not forgetting Su ying, Winnie, Shayne and Albin who's been by my side.
so has kns & old clique. haha.

pray for a better end to S3!!
and i'll keep my friends and family in prayer too. :D

Guzheng teacher

2009-01-10T04:37:00.000-08:00

Okie. So today we had CCA open house. reached school late. x)
So anyways I did councillor duty then moved on to...
Girl guides duty at the last part.
Super busy. Haha.
But it was cool! to see all the CCAs.
The NCC, NPCC, Modern dance strutted their stuff.
Even netball was doing a match. Haha.
Teased Charmaine.. (=<
Anyways. After tht i had bible study with Winnie! Rofl.
She was like nervous. & i rubbed it in by staring at her with the stone face. x))
Sorry winnie!!! xD

Okay. Came home.. Super tired. Didn't go back to meet winnie. I feel super bad. haha.

Going to do homework soon. :D

Oh yeah. Stupid guzheng teacher. [ZP guzheng school
She's a #$%^&*()_ _)(*&^%$#!
She wants to kick me out for not attending lessons consistently.
PLEASE. I have valid reasons can.
Stop being so unreasonable.
What's your problem?!
And you always pick on me. You biased butt.
Grr you!

Grumpy

2009-01-07T03:53:00.000-08:00

Alright.

I get tired too easily.
When i get tired, i don't know why, but i get really grumpy.
So i got pretty easily annoyed today, with my sister, and a few PSLs.. Sorry..
I hate it when i'm this way. I really need to change.
I went to class, no table.
When i got a table, they already took one for me.
& I really don't like my new class..
Whether its classmates or teachers, i feel pretty uncomfortable.
Its really gonna take me some time to adapt to it..
Sigh.. i really miss 2/9..
Secondary three life is indeed, pretty different. Like changing from primary school to secondary school.. but worse.
These two years are crucial. I really gotta focus.
In 3/8, you really can focus. Thats great.
But then again.. all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy, right?
When it comes to play & Camps, I don't look forward to having it with 3/8.
I seriously don't feel like going to camp at all. i don't know how on earth i'm going to live through it.
Pray hard.

O level results are out in 4 days. So to all my sec 4 and 5 seniors whom i love dearly,
Good luck and all the best.

So anyways, school started three days ago.
I started taking 1/5 as my psl class.
I was pretty happy cause there was Adora inside. She's a guzheng friend.
The class started off as quite i quiet bunch. But as the days passed, they started to open up.
i think i'll really miss them.
They were pretty enthusiastic and fun. I had fun leading them. Esp with Hidayat! haha.
The claps. games, " bomb"s were all really really fun, despite the fact after every day as a psl, you really are dead tired.
My sister, however says she danced the whole day and she's more tired and lalala. So here.
Let me make her happy.
Oh yeah! oh my goshh... You're so poor thingg.. You're the person in the worst state.. Oh no.. You must be really tired! More tired than anyone else, ya? oh goshh.. Poor thing.. You work so hard..
Proabably something she'd like to hear. urgh.
Don't talk about it. It'll make me grumpy again. I'm starting to feel better. I will, if i stop reminding myself.
Anyways, today was the last day of psl and i hope they had fun.. their camp is going to be really fun.

Quiz; tagged by hehan

2008-12-29T03:47:00.000-08:00

1: Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
Erm. Ew. I'm 14, what kind of stupid question is that?

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Sleepy!!

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Family member, i think. ^^

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
I don't know? But my mommy says I am. Cause i don't do housework. >.<

5: Would you ever donate blood?
Maybe! (: But i'm very scared it'll be pain pain. >.<

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
Yeap! (: Haha.

7: Do you want someone dead?
No way!

8:What does your last text message say?
Most recent: Haha yea. I jux went for a bath. Im gonna rest for e rest of e day.
Last: Hey. You going to jordan's house today? :)

9:What are you thinking of right now?
I need to wee wee!

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
I don't know, actually. Probably not. :D

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
3:45am!

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
Hmm. Malaysia!

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Nope.. I just need to wee wee very badly.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Shayne (:

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :

01 Celeste
02. Marilyn
03. sebrina
04. Spencer
05. Jaime
06. See hwee
07. Hehan
08. Lixuan
09. Genevieve
10. Laura!

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
She's single. (:

16: Is 3 a male of a female?
Female. (:

17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
That'd be cool! :D

18: What is Number 1 studying about?
erm. We all study the same things? Lol.

19: When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Them who? hahaha. I think i talk to most of the people listed above quite often. :D

20: Is Number 4 single?
NO! Are you kidding?? xDD

21: Say something about Number 2 .
She's nice. (:

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
That'd be weird. They're both female and straight. =_=

23: Describe Number 9 .
She's goth maann! xD Haha. She's awesome. Very nice. My room mate. xDD Love her loads!

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
They hardly know each other, i don't know? Hahaha.

*****************************************************************
The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about themself.
2. People who get tagged need to write their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts.
3. At the end, player needs to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!uh okay! let's get started, shall we? 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about me.

01. I'm really quiet with people i feel awkward around, or not close to.
02. I have self esteem issues..
03. I have an insanely high metabolism rate
04. I'm super self-conscious
05. I'm Daddy's little girl
06. I fidgit alot in my sleep. Now i've got a blue black cause i hit my head against the bedside tale corner from it. ):
07. I get distracted very easily
08. I can't live without my phone
09. I'm a family person.
10. I think its ridiculous to get into a relationship at this age. I'm staying single till 16 at the least, After Os.

10 people i tagged :

01 Celeste
02. Marilyn
03. sebrina
04. Spencer
05. Jaime
06. See hwee
07. Yushan
08. Lixuan
09. Genevieve
10. Laura!

LALA

2008-12-26T09:28:00.000-08:00

Hey.. The wedding was a blast. I had a good time. So cute la. My aunties all danced and stuff.
Saw my cousin in law. HAHA.

Nothing much to say la.
Christmas was alright.
Feels less like christmas every year.
But at elast i spent time with my family.

Time's passing really fast. (:

Operation: Relive rotting blog :D

2008-12-09T19:24:00.001-08:00

Okay. So i realised i have nothing to blog about, and the less i blog, the more my blog dies. No one really wants to come and see it anyways. Rofl. Even if they do, they won't tag.
Anyways, past few days has been..relatively normal.
Apart from the fact that my sister has been ignoring me, having cold war since...
4th of December until... Yesterday.
So as of yesterday night, we're... SORTA okay.
That sucks.

Alright. anywhos,
I really miss Cambodia so much.
it was really an amazing experience. i'll never forget it. :D
Been hanging out and dchatting with mostly.. Planting hope '08 people. xD
Too used to seeing and talkimg to them like everyday. Rofl. Thatwas fun too, living all together.
We're probably gonna have another gathering like on the 23rd or 24th of December. :D
Its also to thank the teachers. Since we came back, we haven't thanked given the teachers anything to express our appreciatuon and gratitude. So a bbq qouldbe cool. Then we can give them a big card at the end of it or something. Haha.

I got into 3/8. (:
Happy.. yet i feel very very bad. ):
Sebrina and others who applied didn't get in..
Probably cause of me.. ):
I really need to work hard next year.
Absolutely, one things for sure. I'm gonna be keeping this no-boyfriend status of mine for another 2 years. Haha.
I can't let anything distract my last two CRUCIAL years, even if its being in the same class as... for 2 years. yeap. Thats settled.

I Haven't even STARTED on holiday homework, i don't know whether to do 3/7 or 3/8?
I think i need to go to school to collect but i just haven't found the time.
THANK YOU ALYAH! For lending me all your sec 3 and 4 textbooks and stuff.
Saved me alot of money and.
THANK YOU ALBIN! For lending me your two literature books with notes.
Saved me money too. haha.
I have this feeling these two years are gonna pass in a flash, so i'd better treaure it.
I can make guy friends, to open up my options when i grad from this school.
But i need to know my limits to proximity. I can't get too close to them, can't give them the wrong idea. I need to realise that guys and girls, just aren't the same. Nan nu shou shou bu qin. If i have been giving the wrong idea, i'm sorry! I'm really NOT interested in ANYONE.
I really need to learn how to say no. =/
:D Haha. Maybe I should just sotp interacting with boys. T_T Go to an all girl's school! :D
I actually really really miss SAC. haha. I'll go over during CNY, to visit the friends and teachers :D
Miss them so much!

The best teachers of PRCS have all started to leavee...
Mr Razak.. er. Mr Neo, kinda.. Mrs Neo.. Mr San... Mrs Tan...
Sigh. Soon this school's gonna go down if theres no miracle of a teacher to come save us. =/
Mr Ng and Mr Ling are nice people, but Its hard for them to control all the students.

Council board? Also disintigrating slowly.
I really mean no offence, with all due respect.
I'm just giving my honest opinion.
People starting to quit. or just lose their sense of urgency! This never happened last time.
They just can't be bothered anymore..
But I sorta agree to a certain extent..
Doing duty used to be so fun. A pleasure doing. Everyone would rush up to volunteer themselves.
now, the ex-cos have to PIN POINT people. Cause hardly anyone wants to go. We only volunteer ourselves now, cause we have to, and we're willing to.
So doing duty is no longer a pleasure, but an extra burden, basically.. a job.
But i'm not going to quit the council board. I still think doing duty is okay.
We've worked so hard, and served for two whole years.. Why quit now?
The council board is not JUST about servitude.. Its about.. manpower. teamwork.
We're losing manpower. The family is just. totally seperated.
Its not the same without the old excos and without mr razak.
But we'll continue to work hard and serve. (:
We have to learn to adapt to new ways of serving, new teachers, new purposes and all.

I'll be leaving this friday for Malaysia.
My cousin's wedding is going to be on the 13th of December, saturday.
Can't wait for that. :D
I shopped for a dress. Found one. It costs $69. LOL.
Can wear it out too, though. quite casual in that weird formal sense. xD
Won't be able to go cell group again. T_T
But the day after i come back, I'LL BE GOING FOR FARENHEIT CONCERT!! :D:D

Which reminds me, ANYONE INTERESTED IN BUYING MY EXTRA FARENHEIT CONCERT TICKET? TOTAL IS $141. PLEASE TAG IF YOU'RE INTERESTED. :D

I only got pass for guzheng exam. So very scared for NUS results.
i don't know how to tell my parents. good luck to me. :D

Thank you, bin2. For being there for me, protecting me and teaching me how to protect myself.
You're right. i need to know my limits, and how to say no. I'm a girl. Its different.

Take me to your heart...

2008-12-03T03:08:00.000-08:00

Thank you Chres Orphanage..
I'll always remember you.
& i'll take you to my heart. (:
Okun chiran chiran, Cambodia. (:
I promise i'll keep in touch with you guys.
I'll go back and visit you all..
I'm missing you all so much already..

Take me to your heart - Michael learns to rock

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

(Chorus)
Take me to your heart
take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy
take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

(Chorus)

chalet and two days after that.

2008-11-16T04:37:00.000-08:00

11th-13th Class chalet. ((:

Wasn't exactly very class-ish, but it was quite cool. :D
Didn't sleep for two days. yesterday got high fever. sian-ded. haha.

11th:
We met at 1 at ws, only to find that carrying raw food, the bus only scheduled to arrive at 1.45!
Then when we arrived, we found out the check in time was 3pm. Haha.
We were all afraid the food wouldn't be fresh anymore. Thank god it was.
Then we went swimming and all that.
We went to have dinner after going to fetch shane, which in the end we didn't. I carried his skateboard all around like a complete idiot. haha.
Soon it was night. Kar kheng and Yen soon came over.
Then they wanted to go cycling. So go lor.
Then YS tompang-ed me.
That made everyone start teasing us. Like. wwhhhaaatt.. Haha.
We went to watch the sunrise and went to the beach. Went cycling.. Then we returned. By the time we went back, it was time for breakfast. 5 am. HAHA. So we went to eat.
I ate a hash brown.
OKK & YS went home.

12th:
zeveryone was excited for the bbq.
But didnt know what to do in the day. So we basically just rotted. haha.
I slept for 2 hours. T_T
Stefanie took out her nintendo Wii and everyone was playing. haha.
Went swimming, again. Hahaha. then da da da. It was night, again.
We gave ZM a present and cake, sang for her bday song!
Then the people in the room were talking.
Btw, i don't think its a crime to care about other people.
OKK came over with a whole big group of friends to send him there cause it was his birthday. haha!
Then i went to ehub with lx and sebrina to pei yensoon.
Then we had the class farewell cake.
but in the end someting cropped up at th echalet, lx and sai went back. i went to accompany ys.
But later on thank god everything went fine.
Then shane, lixuan, michael(ithink) they all came to look for us.
then i can't remember what happened after that.
Oh. then go back chalet. Talk talktalk.
Then some stuff happened. Still very very disappointed with some people...
aiya. I kinda feel like it was my fault. i could've stopped her. ARRGHH. So angry....
I could've stopped her, you know? I watched her.. I just watched her..
I tried to stop her but i could've done more.
Don't feel like talking bout it le la. After that 13th nothing much happened la. I went back to school.

After that at night i went to celebrate Shayne's birthday.
The next day got grad night. quite fun. the end.

Celeste's house

2008-11-06T08:43:00.000-08:00

On monday, we went to the gym. That was cool. Haha.
Worked out quite a bit. 2 hours.
But not much, considering i hardly exercise.
THen went Kbox with Laura, Sebrina, Celeste and Li xuan. :D It was quite fun fun fun. ((:

Today I went to the gym again.
I stayed for 20 minutes. HAHA.
i was like an hour and a half late. Nabilah and Celeste worked out for a full 2.
Haha. Hey. I've got my own uncomfortable femenine reasons for not going early, okay. =_=
Then went to makan, Nabilah went home.
Me and celeste went all the way to chinatown to pick up stuff for the cambodia kids.
Travelling for an hour all the way to south bridge road, only to find that what?
The shop moved 11 months ago.
can you believe it?? Then we got the new address of the place. Where? ROCHOR ROAD.
So we travelled all the way back. to bugis. Then walked!!
SIGH. We were uber angry.
But happy cause the shop had everything we needed for tomorrow!
Then we headed to Tampines to go to celeste's house. So we could both learn balloon sculpturing (I saved her butt too, kay! xPP She owers me. Kidding!! haha.)
Had loads loads of fun at her place. Made alot of noise. Broke the 5 dollar pump.. Burst alot of balloons. Made weird but cute stuff! :D I can make nicer rabbits, kay! xPP

Celeste kenna cheated of money. stupid unreasonable lady!!

Did i mention> We did 3 good deeds today! (: Feeling of satisfaction.
We helped a uncle get to his stop, even sent him to the next train and stuff. :D
We lent an aunty a handphone to contact her son. :D
We let an old lady use the toilet first cause she was urgent. :D

HAHA. So cool la. xPP Woo! today was a fruitful day.

Tomorrow going for packing again. Then having meeting. getting Cambodia t-shirts! :D
Then... oh ya. gonna meet celeste, yensoon, hehan & hehan's dearling for lunch. xPP
Then in the evening got piano. sianded!!

2008-11-04T03:18:00.000-08:00

Name 15 people. At the end of the survey choose 10 people to tag. Name the people before reading the questions.[Random Order ]

1.)Sebrina Kwa!
2.)Celeste Lee!
3.)Sim Lixuan!
4.)Laura Chan!
5.)Charmaine theng!
6.)Marilyn Low!
7.)Lee Yushan!
8.)Zhang min!
9.)Chia hui yi!
10.)Shayne Tan!
11.) Jaime!
12.) Kar kheng!
13.)Rachel lee!
14.) Hehan!
15.) Spencer Nah!

Q1) What is your relationship with 14? (hehan)
He's my poopoohead, i'm his ricegrain head/small girl. We? are just friends, DUH.

Q2) Do you love 6? (marilyn low)
Are you kidding? yes! (:

Q3) Did you see 13 naked before? (Rachel lee)
Yes. i don't even want to elaborate.

Q4) How did you know 5? (Charmaine Theng)
Same class. (: my darling bisexual girlfriend. HAHA.

Q5) Is 9 a boy or girl? (huiyi)
NONE! its a tau gay. hahaha. No la. Kidding. Girl! (:

Q6) Is 7 your best friend? (yushan)
Yes! one of them. (:

Q7) What is 12's full name? (karkheng)
Oh Kar Kheng!

Q8) Can 4 be in a relationship with you? (Laura Chan)
Of course, she's my girlfriend! :D But literally? nope, i'm not lesbian!

Q9) Who does 2 always hang out with? (Celeste Lee)
KNS. and i love them all. :D

Q10) What school does 10 go to? (Shayne Tan)
Pasir Ris Crest Secondary school!

Q11) What is 11's telephone no.?
I'd rather keep that a secret. its none of your business! She's MINE.

Q12) What did 1 tells you that you'll always remember? (Sebrina kwa)
(Your english is horrendous, its tell you, not tells you.)
I remember everything she says. (:

Q13) Are you very close to 15? (Spencer nah)
Yup! We're sistas!

Q14) What is the very special thing about 3 that you like most?
Mostly, that she's retarded! But almost everything. :D

Q15) What do you hate about 8 most?
... Thats a really mean question.

Tag 10 people:
-Li Xuan
-Sebrina
-Laura
-Marilyn
-Yushan
-Jaime
-Hehan (again)
-you & you & you

woohoo - i did it, kay! :D

2008-10-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

MY NAME --- Vanessa!
1. Four letter word ; Vein
2. Boy name ; Victor
3. Girl name ; Victoria
4. Occupation ; Vet
5. Colour ; Violet
6. Something you wear ; Vest
7. Beverage ; Vodka
8. Food ; Vegetable
9. Place ; Vernice/Virginia
10. Something found in bathroom ; Velvet cloth
11. Reason for being late ; Very sleepy!
12. Something you shout ; Vanakam!!
13. Font ; Verdana
14. TV show ; Vasantham can?
15. Song Title ; Valentino - Bowling for soup (the internet is a usful resource! :D)

MUAHAHA.

Questionare and post.

2008-10-30T05:25:00.000-07:00

1) Last night, did u go to sleep happy?
I think so.

2) When was the last time you changed clothes in front of someone?
A long long time ago.

3) Anyone told you a secret this week?
yup.

4) Did you have a good day yesterday?
YES! kbox. :D

5) What was the highlight of today?
CIP Cambodia! (:

6) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes, to save battery, or when i'm really really scared it'll ring in an important event.

7) What happened at 3:00pm today?
I laughed my butt off with the sec 2 cambodia team(:

8) When was the last time you took a picture with your number 1 friend?
i don't know. All my friends are number 1? So i guess ytd? haha.

9) Do you hate anyone?
nope! hate is a strong word.

11) Do they know who they are?
Who? =_=

12) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I don't like peanut butter~ >x(

3) When did you last cry?
good question. A couple of days ago? i would say thursday.

14) Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
nope! I'm not an idiot like lixuan. :D

15) Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
erm. honestly, nope.

17) When was the last time you bought something?
Wow. is food counted? Haha. i don't know about others though, quite long ago.. I seldom shop?

18) Have you ever told someone you love them?
yes..

19) Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you know you're wrong?
Nope, its just not right.

21) Where are you right now?
At home. (: not really. my aunt's house, but i live here temporarily.

22) Is there anyone that calls you baby?
yeap. eileen. T_T Some of my pri sch. friends. (:

23) In the next 2 months what are you looking forward to the most?
okok. Class chalet, outings and CAMBODIA, BABY! :D

24) Why?
Thats a stupid question. Its fun.

25) Who did you last call?
jie jie Jannie, my cousin. (:

26) What are you thinking of right now?
Shhh. Thats for me to know and for you to find out. xP

27) You partied? When and where was the last time?
nope. I don't party.

30) Have you ever sat and waited for someone to come online?
Yes.. don't want to think about it.

31) When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry?
Today!

33) Did you tell someone something today?
Nope.

34) Do you like make-up?
Its alright. but not really. I thnk Natural is best. But a little lip gloss or eye liner won't hurt. not that i do use them, though.

35) Do you like dressing up?
yes! (: its the only pretty side of my uglyness. and its still ugly, but better than usual (:

36) Have you ever considered a sex change?
erm. Nope. I don't object to people who do it, but not for me.

38) What will you buy next?
its between clothes, dress, presents or a star orange carebear. :D

2) Have any crazy family members?
yes! my sister is mentally unsound. HAHA. For real? Nope, not that i know of.

39) Are you bored?
Not really(:

40) What's on your mind right now?
Shh. thats for me to knwo and for you to find out. I thought i already said that? =_=

41) What are you wearing?
My usual shirt and shorts... why? -.- Is that even RELEVANT?

42) Any plans for today?
Yes! Go snack. probably do theory homework. maybe practice gz. :D

43) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
She's my cousin. (:

45) What's your favorite Gatorade flavor?
i don't know. grape, probably. but blueberry isn't bad. :D

46) What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
i don't know, theres a couple.
Sebrina: Hey darling :) Are you okay?
Shayne: Thank u. Ur oso girly, in a gd way.
-: I love you soo much =) [DELETED]

48) What's beside you right now?
What? My phone. (:

49) Where do you want to be right now?
SOMEEEWHHEERREEE OVVERR THE RRAINNBOOWWW!~

50) What is it that you find so hard to forget?
That thing you did.. ): Shh!

TAG:
people i tagged for the previous questionare.

Went to kbox ytd. was super fun! took alot of retarded photos... (:
Sebrina can sing, baby!
li xuan's not too bad herself! xD
Had soo much fun. (; took alot of retarded pcitures with amd of lixuan.

suprisingly, the boys sang too! it was really cute. (:

They were singing all the small things, pump it, my humps, etc. (: haha

Had alot of fun

Lixuan played the spongebob game at arcade. and she made me play para para. like. ohmygawd. haha. We were waiting for sebrina darling to go eat dinner. haha.
Then i made lixuan die 2 times! HAHA. Waste her money seh. xPP

packing for Cambiodia tuierns out more fun than hard work. Well both together, actually.
We laughed our butts off. Really. I almost cried. Went for lunch together.
i kept playing with the shoot shoot! xPP
then saw wei qi, shayne, wei ji, yan xiang all that. They came back to take O levels. All the best!
Charmaine is a merlion! xDD

weird but fun questionare xP

2008-10-30T04:27:00.000-07:00

1)Whats your full name?
Vanessa Chua Xinyi

2)Do you like your first name?
Are you kidding? vanessa is an awesome name. (=< All Vanessas rock. HAHA. Kidding. but my parents chose this name for me. i like it. (:

3)How long have you liked the person you currently like?
Hmm.. Probably since.. Three days before his birthday? so.. 26th September, i totally fell for him completely. How long is that?
34 days.

4)Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
I havem't lost my first kiss yet, and i'm proud of it. :DBtw, i don't intend to till i'm much older! (:

5)Did you cry today?
Nope. its an improvement. (:

6)What are you doing this morning at 8am?
bathing! preparing to go school to help pack for CIP cambodia :D

7)What are you doing an hour ago?
I was really tired and sleepy? So I was taking a nappy! *oink* xP

8)What are you currently doing?
This? and listening to my own blog songs.

9)Who last texted you a msg?
I think.. Celeste! She said she was going to be late(: Poor thing, injured her back. Hope it gets better! (:

10)Have to told anybody that you love them today?
Sadly not.. maybe to mommy, grandma and daddy tonight before i sleep :D

11)Do you miss anyone now?
Are you kidding? duh.

12)Any plans for tomorrow?
Yes! go back to school to pack. Then go piano class(:

13)What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
Can i not say? probably over * and the other girl.

14)Is there anyone you want to be with now?
Yeap..

15)Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C?
I HAVEN'T LOST MY FIRST KISS. STOP AKING ME THAT!

16)Name someone who make you smiles today, how?
All the combodia team people and Shayne(: The combodia people made me laugh my butt off. I smiled at Shayne when i said hi? =_=

17)Name a friend who's name starts with 'Z'
zhangmin baobei(:

18)Which of your friend stays closest to you?
Last time? Moron Yan yuan..
Now? Aaron wong?

19)Do you prefer to call or to text?
I like both. Sometimes i prefer texting, cause i'm afraid when i talk on the phone, i don't know what to say then there'll be an awkward silence. >.<

20)Was yesterday better than today?
Yes, i guess you could say so(:

21)Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
Yeap, why not? i loveee technology, and would prefer not to live without it, but i can if i had to(:

22)Are you mad about anything now?
Nope. Wait. Not really, anyways. (: Upset, disappointed and sad. But not at this moment now.

23)Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
Depends on the guy, but at this age, probably not. Our emotions aren't stable enough to take bgr problems, wait till we're more mature and older.(:

24)Last person you visited in a hospital?
My friend's mom whom i'm really close to ):

25)When is your last and second last hug?
This morning.. To charmaine and celeste. :D

6)What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
Shayne: haha. thank u. Ur in sch rite?

27)How do you feel about your life now?
Could be better.

28)Do you hate anyone?
Nope! (: hate is a really strong word!

29)Last person you called?
My cousin, Jannie.

30)Who usually sent you the most texts in a mth?
Last last time hehan
Last time Destin
Now Shayne i think. (:

which month?
Last last time 5 or 6 months straight?
Last time May to September/october.
Now? this month. (:

31)Is your room messy now?
Can say so. but better than usual, i guess. gotta clean up!

32)Who will be mad if your room is messy?
My dad! Clean freak. xP but i love'em.

33)Your shortest relationship?
i wouldn't exactly count it. =x but two weeks.

34)Who do you look like?
I don't know what you mean, but.. a nerd? Wait. I look like. oh i know! Vanessa Chua Xinyi! :D :OO

35)Tag 10 people to do this survey
1.) Laura
2.)Celeste
3.)marilyn
4.)Huiyi
5.)Zhangmin
6.)Jaime
7.) Fiona Ip
8.) Lixuan
9.) Rachel
10.) you. :D

Self esteem. dirt low??

2008-10-29T08:19:00.000-07:00

Dirt Low
Your self esteem is... well, kinda low. BUCK UP!! You're a great person, you just don't feel o-so-wonderful compared to others. Start trying to feel like you're equal to others. Because you are! You're even quite a bit cooler!! Don't let words bring you down. Once you aren't afraid to show yourself, the world can see how beautiful you are; inside AND out!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

Okay. So sebrina got me stuck on quizzes, right. I took this quiz. its called: how high is your self-esteem. Go try it. I got dirt low.

MELLIE ROCKS!!
NESSA LOVES SMELLY SOCKS!!!
I HAVE GOLDEN LOCKS!!
NESSA LOVES TO TALK COCK!!
haha.

2008-10-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

[In life we face all kinds of obstacels and difficultires.. the outcome is the reflection of your preperation.]

Okay.. the holidays have just began.
Off with a terrible start,
but its getting better..

Been moodswinging since.. ytd..
It feels terrible.
I hope tomorrow will be better..
And maybe.. just hopefully..
i'll end with a perfect 08.

Monday i'm watching butterfly lovers with lixuan they all(:
[Cheer up.. I'm really sorry. I didn'tknow it would end this way for you. I know its hard for you.. Smile..
Please don't be sad. I'm sorry i added to your pain.. But i'm just as hurt as you are. perhaps.. even more.]

GIVE YOU HELL - all american rejects ( thanks to daddy. (: )

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thatfs worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool youfre just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow youfll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on
Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thatfs worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool youfre just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then hefs a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well youfll never tell
And youfre the fool Ifve just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope it puts you through hell

EMP!

2008-10-21T03:19:00.000-07:00

This wednesday is EMP concert, at 5. (: For sec 29, only the 10 of us are doing solos.. Sadded. Okay. Good luck, people! haha. I'm gonna go practice my guzheng! (: For exams and the solo. Pray hard i'll do alright!! :D:D Haha. (: SCARED SCARED SCARED. What if i get stage fright?? T_T

[Wow. Those words.. sound so familiar. I wonder. Could i ask. Do you say that sentence to all of them? You should really CHANGE your pickup line. Its getting old. Its not your fault. I don't blame you. But. WTH. Seriously. Then again.. everyone deserves a second chance. I really don't know what i want.]

Results & credits! (:

2008-10-21T01:41:00.000-07:00

Hey people.
Okay. I'm feeling better, a little.

haha. Talked to madam Rozilla today! She said that the teachers check our blogs. haha.
People, becareful of what you post, ya? xDD Haha.

Okay. This post will be long. I'm gonna state ALL my results. xDD Ooh. but i don't have my worst. My CA1. I'll try to remember.

Anyways,
My mid year results really pulled me down alot.
Here're my scores. (: Comparing MYEs to EOYs. (not including CAs)

MYE:
English: 57/100 [C5]
Mathematics: 55/100 [C5]
Science: 55/100 [C5]
Chinese (mother tongue): 61/100 [B4]
Literature: 66/100 [B3]
Goegraphy: 66.5/100 [B3]
D&T: 63/100 [B4]
Art: 55/100 [C5]

EOY:
English: 66/100 [B3] (improved!)
Mathematics: 70.5/100 [A2] (improved!)
Science: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): 64/100 [B4] (improved!)
Literature: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
History: 67/100 [B3]
Home economics: 66/100 [B3]
Art: 66/100 [B3] (improved!)

=_= wow. LOL.

CA1, from what i remember:
English: A2
Mathematics: F9
Science: B3?
Chinese: C6
Literature: A2?
Geography: A1
D&T: A1
Art: C6?

CA2:
English: 70.2/100 [A2] (no change)
Mathematics: 72/100 [A2] (improved!)
Science: 83.8/100 [A1] (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): 49.5/100 [D7] (deproved..)
Literature: 20/100 [F9] (deproved..)
History: 75.5/100 [A1]
Home economics: 79.5/100 [A1]
Art: 63.5/100 [B4] (improved!)

Okay. now i'll compare my Overalls. just by grades. (:

MYE:
English: B3
Mathematics: C6
Science: C5
Chinese (mother tongue): C5
Geography: B3
Literature: B3
D&T: A2
Art: C6
CME: A
Music: B

Class position: 23/40
Level position: 106/ 203

EOY (whole year, including MYE):
English: B3 (no change)
Mathematics: B4 (improved!)
Science: B3 (improved!)
Chinese (mother tongue): C5 (no change)
Literature: B3 (no change)
History: A2
Home Economics: A2
Art: B4 (improved!)
CME: A
Music: A (improved!)

Class position: 18/39
Level position: 88/203

Sigh. This year was terrible.
I hope next year will be better. :D
Pray hard, yeah?
No use crying over spilt milk..

Iwanna wish all my darling Secondary 4 seniors taking their O levels this year
All the best for their exams.
Good luck!

You will all pass with flying colours!! ((:

Love you all. :D

Cell group on saturday was super fun. Too many things to elaborate.
Poor cell leader. ((; But so nice to see him so happy after the whole surprise.
The only bad part of that day was Shayne hurting his foot (poor thing!!!) and. Leaving. haha.
Sunday went for service, left early. (:

okay okay. erm. CREDITS! very long never have le.
Special thanks to:

*Sebrina! : Thank you so much, darling.. For always being there for me. I know you're hurting too. Cheer up, okay? we'll both get through this together

*Clique: Thanks, girls. Love you all loads. You guys cheered me up so much.

*Shan: Cheer up, girl. Love you loads. Thanks for being there for me. (:

*Kanasaiis! : Hey girls, i wanna thank all of you. for all these two years, i love you guys loads. And always will. (: XOXO.

*2/9 boys: Wow. Its been hell of a year with you guys. ((; But i had so much fun, and you guys ALWAYS was there to cheer me up. Not that bad afterall, yeah? haha! Loves!

*Gen 3.6: Thank you.. for everything. Theres so much to thank, I won't be aable to express my grtitude in words. i love you guys! ((:

* Nadia, Maliah 7 the rest of "the circle": Thank you darlings. For always being there for me. Through ups and downs. (: Love you loads.. Remember, whats said in the circle remains within it. xD Loves! XOXO.

*Destin: For everything, especially for helping me trust someone again. Thank you(:

*Fiona, Che Wei and Eugene: The encouragement, and trying to cheer me up. thank you(:

*2/9: Once a '2908, always a '2908. I'll remember every single one of you always, and no matter what class we end up in, we'll always have 2908 and 1907 in our hearts, yeah? I treasure every memory i shared together with you guys as a class. I'll miss you all soo much.. ): I love 2908/1907!!

[imy loads.]

Sucky 08

2008-10-16T06:59:00.001-07:00

today got back the final results..
Suck like shit..
My position was 88.. ):
I worked so hard la.
I don't want to think about anything anymore.
2008 just totally sucked la..
its been a really hard week for me.
Been really really sad.

i'll be okay.

2008-10-14T02:51:00.000-07:00

I'll be fine. I'll get through this and come out stronger.
I just want you to be happy.

Anyways. Today recieved 4 results.. ):
I'm super sad la.. cause i didn't do well..
and i studied really hard..
So far:
Science: 72
English: 66
History:67
Art: 66

SIGH. ):

Lyrics

2008-10-13T06:49:00.000-07:00

I'M FINE, KAY.
FORGET EVERYTHING.
JUST. BE HAPPY.

Thunder
Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breez
eI need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder.

Fall for you
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
Oh, but hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

tonight
I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin
'Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can't just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

Kbox

2008-10-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

Thanks, everyone for trying to cheer me up.I really appreciate it. (:
I had alot of fun today.
Went to ehub to slack with li xuan and charmaine..
Then met Mun mun, wei ling and Vanetta.
Sigh. but the last part, we went to 77th street. saw some caps. Passed by royal sporting house. Went to kalms to see tatty teddy cards and teddy bears. Also passed tampines. the moment i was back alone on the bus on the way back, passed a soccer field, basketball court. Sianded. Its everywhere. HAUNTING ME, I TELL YOU! haha.
Anyways, i sang my heart out today. (:It was kinda cool. The lunch was nice..It took my mind off everything.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow.
Seriously.
I don't ever want to see the people there again.
Don't want to get back my exam papers..
Its gonna be a sucky end of year..b
ut must remain optimistic.
Its seriously hard. But i'm trying!!
Lately,
Seconds past like minutes
minutes pass like hours
hours pass like days
& days pass like years.

[iknowyou'refinewithoutme.i'mhappythatyou'rehappy.butidomissyoualot.]

2008-10-12T06:03:00.000-07:00

Thanks, Gen 3.6! Love you guys.. (:

They made me feel so much better..
I hope everything's gonna turn out fine.
Okay.
I gotta stop thinking about it.
I'll move on, right?

Today i went to the cornerstone for the first time.
It was nice. (:
& today the topic was pity party.
About shame. Which i thought was very.. important. (: I can't find the word.
Haha. Anyway, it was AHA. It was appropriate. yeah.
And it made me feel a little better about myself.
Then went for lunch with shayne, jordan, yang rong (yang yang rong? =_=), georgina, donavon, wye kiet (don't know how to spell) and Gerard.. haha. Fun. donavon!! My face IS NOT THAT small, kay! Its your hand thats big. Shayne and Jordan also. Your hand is big. xD My hands are normal sized!! xD
And Thank you donavon, for praying for me. (:
I think i'm just about ready to accept Christ ba.
Anyways then we had a very very long lunch and i took 12 with shayne, jordan and sillia? cillia? hee. don't know how to spell her name. Anyway, they were all really nice to me.
Shayne thought me how to play that weird concentration or dunno what game that li xuan all that always play. xDD haha. He entertained me throughout. So did jordan la. That clumsy guy. Spilt water! Haha. Poor aunty had to clean up for him. But he did help. He went to the stall to borrow the cloth. We were saying he could become cleaner. TEEHEE.
When the ice water came, He was like "I should've ordered red bull! *knocks cup down accidentily*" =_= Wasted his money. Haha.
Jordan and shayne were talking about their shit colour over lunch. =_=
Me and georgina were staring at each other like "omg." hahaha. LUNCH.
Winnie they all went to help clean up the church. ^^ So didn't meet her in the end.
Mean Shayne played a joke on her. T_T We thought she cried! then he felt super bad. xD

Yay. Tomorrow going to meet yushan and jaime.
I'm very scared for my solo. Super Super scared. T_T
Did i mention? I skipped sunday guzheng for the 3rd conseqetive week now!
I'll pray hard i don't get kicked out.. T_T

I didn't keep in contact with anyone else that would affect my mood today, except for the last part.
Today, was the best day of my 4 sucky days. (:

The end.

must you really resort to this?
i actually miss you. alot.

2008-10-11T04:52:00.001-07:00

okay. Thank god i went for cell today.
Made me feel a bit better.
i'll post another day.

is he the reason?
do feel sad at all?
you seem fne without me..
maybe it was God's will.
Lets just leave it the way it is..
Slowly, i'll forget you.

YES!

2008-10-09T01:19:00.000-07:00

Yay! Freedom, baby! Tell me about it. xD
Okay. Today we had two papers, for the first time in this week.
Home economics and mathematics paper 1. Weird that our paper one comes after our paper two. Haha. They both kinda sucked, actually. Especially home economics. There was this question, the second last one, it asked "Name one ethnic group and state one thing that you should and should not do when eating at the home of a person of that ethnic group" Something like that. T_T My answer was like: Malay. Use your right hand to eat. You should not use your left hand to eat. ^^ So smart sia my answer, sure get zero de, power! xD haha.

but i don't want to fail math, though. I already lost some marks. T_T :(
okay. no one ever mention the M word and P word ever again, kay!! :(
I hope i'll do well
okay. Shan't think too much, its over already anyways.
Tomorrow is officially the last exam, art.
But its something we don't have to study for so its like. We can finally let our minds rest! (:
Might be going bintan over the deepavali weekend cause got nothing to do. Okay, I need need need to practice for my guzheng exam and performance! oh maann. So scared.
EMP used to be all about fun. Now its about appearing proffesional and not losing face.
Urgh. I can't stand it!
Monday going out with yu shan and jaime. Hope i'll have a good time.

Sian la. Lucky got eugene entertain me. I can't believe i just said that.=_=

5 o clock i'm gonna rush my art then do piano theory ( don't feel like it. but bo bian )
Oh ya. Today Rachel, me and jaime pang seh-ed huiyi, yushan and baobei (earlier on. this one's different it was a misunderstanding.we thought she going with ********. sorry baobei!). haha.
RACHEL'S IDEA!! xDDD Hahaha. End up the rest angry. T_T wth sia. no offence la, but this kind of thing also must angry? =_=
Okay. not important. Anyways, wahaha. spamming taiwan channel V. xDD Okay.

I'll go do art now.. (: Bye, people! (:

LALA.

2008-10-07T01:29:00.000-07:00

Guys. All the same laa. Lol. So tyical boys, and they say girls are hard to understand! xD haha.

Anyways. Today we had literature exam. Muahaha.

Okay la. It wasn't as difficult as i expected. I did 2+ pages for my first quesiton and 1 page + for my second question. ((:

Science? Totally screwed up. But theres nothing i can do about it. So oh wells.

but if i don't do well i'll be super sad. Cause i studied really hard..

Oh yes. Birthday tradition.

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRRHTDAY TO YOUUUU.

HAPPY BIRRTTTHHDDAAAAAYYYY TO MY DARLING CHHHAAAAARRMMMAAIIINEE~

HAPPPPYYY 14th BIIRRRTTTTHHHHHDDAAAAAYYYY TOOOO YYYOOOUUUUU~~!! :D

Wishing you all the best in everything you do, especially the exams now.. (:

And enjoy your present from the kanasaiis. HAHA. xD

Love you loads, ya? (:

XOXO.

Okay. We took some pictures at marilyn's house that time, making our own lunch. As well as at giant. I put them together into a paranoma picture. (: Like advertiement like that. Haha! Actually quite long ago, but i kept forgetting to post it even though i promised to.. haha. Sorry, loves! (: Here you go. (:

So spastic right. Hahaha. xDD okay. doesn't matter. its cool, kay.

2008-09-29T07:01:00.000-07:00

Yo! haha. Okay. End of year exams started already. Friday was the first paper.
English and MT paper 1.
It was... okay la. (: But MT was crap. xD
Today sucked. Haha. History and english both very difficult. very scared! haha.
Okay. Birthday tradition. Happy birthday, Destin!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU
HAPPY BIRTHHHDAAAYYY TO DESTINNN
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~

Haha. Happy 14th bday. already 14 so must act a bit more mature, can?? LOL. Sorry bout today, ya? Wishing you all the best, with exams and everything else that you do. & thanks, for everything, study buddy. xDD Haha. Hope you pass your exams with flying colours! (:

Okay. The red words are forbidden to be commented on, okay. xDD HAHA.

Anyways, wishing everyone all the best with your end of year examinations! We'll all pass with flying colours, ya? Okay. now must all be guai kia and do math assessment!! :D xP Okok. I also be guai kia le!! I go do assessment. Next paper 3 october Maths paper 2.

oh ya. in advance dedicated birthday tradition to He Han. Pai Seh, poo poo head i'll give you your present at class chalet, k? Promise la. Along with alot of other people whom i owe presents to. xDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUU
HAPPY BIRTHHHDAAAYYY TO POO POO HEAD HE HANNN
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~

Haha. Even though you're really annoying, you're really fun to hang out with. So thanks for entertaining me in class and being the annoying shit you are. xD haha. Good luck with your end of year examinations. Must be top boy again ya? (: Hehan's all grown up man! Must be more mature! ((: Haha.Okay. Jia you! and LL with T-----. xD Okay. All the best!

2008-09-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

YO!
haha. okay. Actually nothing much to say la.
Today had home econs practical and stuff
This friday is the officil start of the exams.
I'm still kinda slacking la. So very disappointed.
But then again, like hh said la. Not good to get stressed out.
So i'll take it a step at a time. For now focus on history.
haha.
Today teased baobei like xiao. Her face red like tomato. Haha (: LL! xD
Then tomorrow going changi airport with shane, donavon and yushan. but shan seems reluctant. If she's not going, i won't ither. So weird la, two guys one girl. Haha.
Anyways, still depressed about my baby.
Still hoping my 4th baby, chocolatewill get repaired.
Now addicted to 9 o clock show.
Decided that tmr i'm gonna start ardcore studying. Afternoon till night. Hopefully.
Tonight must pray. x)
That i will be able to focus, concentrate. Alot of other stuff. (:
haha. I gotta do my part for the exams and leave God to do the rest! (Amen to that.) x)
FOCUS! ((:
okok. I'll end here. :D

是时间让我们认识了自己，也肯定了对方。
I think I've just about decided. But. Its still flickering.

Sad.

2008-09-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

I can't believe i lost my baby.
I left her in the car.
been depressed for 5 days now. :(
My i450..
Okay. Please. lets not talk about it.

Anyways. The EOY exams are coming and we really should work hard, ya?
This year is streaming! Must get into our desired class next year. :D

I think i'm aiming for 3.8. Roughly decided. ((:
Its almost the end of the year. Can you believe it?
Doesn't time fly?
It feels like just last week we entered sec 2.
And look. Now we're all going into sec3!
Before you know it, Os, poly, uni and WORK. Then marriage, kids, family. Omg man.
hahahahaha.

All grown up~

Haha. The class misses Michael badly. We all got a shock when he left. )):
But we do see him and he comes back on fridays for cca! :D
Which reminds me. Girl guides is FINALLY stopped till after EOY exams.

I actually wanted to post about my i450 but right now, i can't think about it.
I'll get really sad when i do. seriously.

Sigh. I miss her so much. ): My baby i450!! :(

I lost my science assessment book. sianded. Been chased for it for weeks.

I need to save for a lot of upcoming stuff this year. Driving me nutz man!! T_T

Okay. stress stress stress. But its good. Keeps me alert.
I gotta remind myself not to slack.

Work hard, people!! Jia you! (:

2008-09-02T06:34:00.001-07:00

Today went to sungei Buloh.
WAH LAO Very boring seh. Seriously.
Its the boringest excursion ever.
Furthermore, it was raining. So we didnt get to do much.
The 2/6 people didn't wait for mrs neo. So when we were abut 3/4 there, mrs neo called.
We had to turn around. So in the end, we took 1 hr plus to get there
So we had like half an hour to be at sungei buloh then leave. Like.. whaaaattt. Lol.
So we watched some weird video and then looked at some water. thats it.

Then after that went study.
But couldn't really concentrate. which sucked. T_T
Anyways after that watched Thheee siimpppsooonnnssss~ xD
Quite nice. Stupidly funny. xDD
Then the doggy so cute. ^^

Anways. Bored-ness. Only done science.
Tonight must practice piano and finish maths. and its already 10. T_T oh man.
haha. Piano exam in two weeks and i'm here playing com. xD
Wooptydoos. I borrowed my pri sch best friend's psp. score! xD Haha. No la. but that one is to help her put in some games and stuff. (: I'm so nice. HEHEHE.

Okay. Nothing to say. byeb ye. Hehan is a sadist. the end.

LALA.

2008-08-31T01:33:00.000-07:00

Congrats to CELESTE AND SEBRINA for getting FIRST PLACE! love you girls! You guys were GREAT!
Congrats to beloved lil bro for getting 3rd!! well done. (:
Congrats to Xin Ru! you were brave and you sang well. (: its not all about winning, right? :D jia you! (:

I missed school ytd.. =/ Overslept, actually. Feel so bad la. XD I actually wanted to go to school. :D Heard it was fun. and wanted to collect my report book so bad laa. ): sadded. Got 2 F9. ):

Woohoo! awesome. ((: Went to gym today man. Only ran 1.6km but at least its something, right? :D:D YAY.

Sigh. Things aren't meant to be this way. Why is it that everyone's so happy, but I'm still not contented? I feel happy like this.. but. its just that its not right. Everyone deserves a second chance. If only she learnt from her mistakes..

Why the conflict?

"Lord, i pray you bless my friends. help them to realise their mistakes. Not just one, but all. Things shouldn't be like this. We can't be happy when someone has been hurt. Why can't we all change for each other accept one another and just be happy together?"

对不起，宝贝。even though you left us out and did some stuff that hurt us too, it shouldn't be like this. 我不知道事情怎么会变成这样。对不起对不起。。。

2008-08-23T02:47:00.000-07:00

YO! Haha. OKay. Haven;t blogged for so long. my bloggy is so dying.
Anyways, i actually attempted to blog many times, but it failed. ):
Cause of the stupid computer. The internet connection is terrible. ):
Even the wall of shame was a failure xD
oh wells. x) Recently, i've been back into the slacking mood. So now. must go back to work mode.
Brandy boy was right. He said i always worry for nothing.
Haha. I really add unecessary stress on myself.
I really need to learn to. RELAX.
hahaha.
sianded. Alright, i'd better start on my work.
I made a September Holiday resolution. To excercise everyday during sept hols. x) Go gym or something. Haha. Then after that once a week go jogging. And must study everyday too. ((: TRY!

~~不能为爱情而傻傻地放弃自己的目标。考试完再说吧。~~
让我自然地从他的诚意与真心中被感动到，而让我心对他认输。

Quiz

2008-08-22T20:38:00.000-07:00

#1 Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
Why would they? But that'd be kinda cool. ^^ To Taiwan, i guess. (:Or america.

#2 What's your favourite thing to do?
Thats hard. I think. slack & snack. ^^

#3 Do you think money can buy happiness?
No! Are you insane??

#4 If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
Eternal problem-free life of luxury~ ^^

#5 Things you can't live without:
-Technology, esp my phone
-God
-Friends
-Family
-Loved ones

#6 What are you afraid to lose?
The ones i love. ):

#7 If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Wow. If only :DD Hm. Donate half to charity, half of the remaining to my family. Half of the remaining remaining to save and the rest to shop, and spend. xD

#8 What do you dream of doing in the future?
Be an artiste? Probably. Something i love to do. (:

#9 List down 3 good points of the person who gave this survey
Thats hard. HAHA. Nice. Witty. Fun to be around (Hehan)
Lovable. Nice. Trustworthy. (Lixuan)

#10 What makes you happy?
haha. I get happy even by the smallest sweet gestures of care, affection, love and concern. (:

#11 What type of person do you hate most?
Backstabbing, twofaced, immature in thought, annoying people. Its worse if they are obnoxious, unhygeinic and disgusting.

#12 If you could have a superpower what would it be?
The ability to understand. (:

#13 Would you go for happiness or money?
Happiness. But technically, both would be great. x)

#14 Who do you think is the most important people in your life?
wow. My family, i guess. (: The ones i love, and all my friends.

#15 If you have a boyfriend, would you die for him?
It depends on how worth it the guy is. ((: Maybe.

#16 Who was the last person that hugged you?
Guy? On purpose probably hh. Dare? He who must not be named.
Girl? On purpose? I hug alot of girls. :D i think it was.. Leena. (: Dare? Why would anyone dare me to hug a girl. =/

#17 What is the one thing you want badly now?
To do very well academically and money $$ ((:

#18 Who are you close to?
Alot of people. (:

#19 Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him?
I'm not despo. But i would. Only if the guy is worth it.

#20 If you could do one thing all over again, what would it be?
Hm. Wow. I don't know. Theres alot of things i regret doing.. (:

7 things that scare you
Are you kidding? Seven is too little.
Mostly..
-Injections
-Falling down
-Insects
-getting hurt
-Bullies or gangsters

7 things that you like most
I like lotsa stuff
-Stuff toys
-Money
-Shopping.
-alot of other stuff
7 important things in my room
-Bed
-Computer
-Handphone
-Clothes
-Guitar
-Pillows
-Stuff toys
7 random facts about me
-I'm very talkative.
-I don't like awkward silences
-I'm very gu niang. very. really.
-I suffer from underground-level-self-esteem-disorder
-I'm daddy's little girl.
-I love Jake. Only.
-I'm very ugly.
7 things I plan to do before I die:-
-Have a religion
-earn $1000000
-Get married
-Go to taiwan and see my idols
-Confess
-Grow taller
-Be famous! :D
7 things I can do
-Play the guzheng
-Play the guitar
-Play the piano
-i can't do much.
7 things you are attracted to in the opposite sex
-Boy-nest-door looks
-Nice
-Gentlemenly
-Sweet
-Sporty
-Caring
-English!

7 things that I often say
-Whateverr
-Fine la!
-haha
-whhaaaaaaatt only
- HI!
-crazy!
-boo!
-Hey.
7 people to do this questionnaire
-Jaime
-Marilyn
-Zhang min
-Celeste
-Sebrina
-Destin
-Laura

2008-08-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

Thanks, Li Xuan. I agree. Don't anyhow touch my stuff. lol.

Anyways I posted alot actually.. but then. It didn't get through. x)

2008-08-14T06:43:00.001-07:00

I think i wanna change blogskin soon. when i'm free-er ba.
haha. just got nagged at by my mom. She says i'm slacking too much.
Its like. I should be spending half my life 24/7 surrounded by books.
My head should be buried in a textbook or an educational book for the rest of my life.
How exciting. =.=
Anyways. Selamat hari raya! To all my darling malay friends. (:
And happy children's day to che wei and li xuan. xDD
Teehee. okay la and me too.
Rofl.
Woke up early this morning. just to go for tuition.
Who knew. just before i left tuition i recieved an sms from my tuition teacher
she said tuition was cancelled cause her mother just passed away.
Thats like. Super sad la! :( So poor thing.
And she was alright when we saw her on saturday!
Gosh. So sudden.
Who knows what'll happen man. I might die tonight. :O Haha.
okay. last night was like really freaky. I don't know la. Its like a dream but i'm subconscious.
And i get the same dream. Its the.. 4th time i think.
Its like. I try to go to sleep. Then.
When i feel like i'm 3/4 to dream land, something pins me down.
Like holds me down. So i can't get up. At this time i'm already subconscious. I know my surroundings and can see it. but i cannot get up la. And the worse part is that i'm aware of my surroundings so i'm not dreaming anymore. But i was still pinned down.
After a while i try to snap out of it then i'll force my way to get up.
I get so scared when it happens..
The first time it happened like. can hear voices like that. Maybe thats just cause i was too scared.
So last night after the second time it happened i prayed. Then went to sleep.
I don't know why I still have that nightmare. its very scary. =/

2008-08-14T06:43:00.000-07:00

Haven't been blogging for a while now. (: Kinda. xD

My sister was annoying the shooties outta me today.

I was like trying to practice and she was next to me screaming the wrong lyrics for half an hour.

Anyways.

I had a difficult decision but in the end decided to follow sai's advice. It seemed the best. (:

Soooo i went to be a guai loyal Cambodia team member. xDD Although i left early to study.

But study session was HARDLY a study session in the end anyways. T_T

Haha. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DIYANA! LOVE YOU LOADS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPYYY BIIRRTTTHHDAAAYY TOOOO DDIIIYAAAANNNAA~~

~~You're not my boyfriend nor my father, i don't find a need to report to you my every move.~~

~~Thanks. (: Hope you get well soon. (:~~

National Day

2008-08-07T22:34:00.000-07:00
Today we had Talent Quest and National day celebration.
Turned out to be surpisingly quite fun. xD
haha. Everyone was like Super high la! ((:
While singing, everyone got up and swayed their arms in the air and soon they created a whole chu chu train of like half the school going all round the hall to the stage!!
Then the teachers got us to settle down, and the seniors, still in the hyper mood shouted 1 2 3 and they all did the PRCS wavee~~ So cool la! It was like SO AWESOME. haha. then we did it round the whole hall. cool-ness. Rofl
The winner of talent quest was this girl with an AMAZING voice. (: She sang a malay song.
But she definitely got into the mood. (:
Runner up was A something something. Hahaha. Naufal's band. (: It was quite nice.
and second runner up was huzaifa's group. The dancer (my councillor junior) was like. Really good. (: It was really nice la, his dance. xD I bet Mr Shafie was really proud of his son. ^^ Well done! (:
Oh yeah! I went to the old folk's home to bring some old folks to our school for the talent quest and performance. (: They were quite cute. xD some very enthu and hyper. hahaha. Me and huiyi had a hard time at first, trying to start talking to them. But slowly, it got better and we could hold conversations. (: i think it was a cool experience. Haha. I Hope Mr Azhar smiles more, he looks really good when he smiles! ((: I miss mr razak too, though~ lol. (:

Anyhoos. Yesterday, we all went to poor emo cedric di's house, with Destin, Che Wei, Eugene, Li Xuan, Me, Marilyn, Celeste, Charmaine, Jaime, Cecilia , Joey and cyril? ciril? cereal? HEEHEE. However you spell his name. Anyway its cedric (who has a very nice voice too)'s Brother who's really good at singing praise and worship. (: sorry if i missed anyone out! Quite alright la. (: wasn't boring. (: Then We played taidi after cell. xD The rain was soo heavy so we were all waiting for it to get lighter. (: I cleared my dares, so did eugene! (: Oh yeah. Sadly, so did Che Wei. =/ haha. End up only Des got one dare. HAHA. loser. He was still boasting about how good he was!! Hahaha. Overall, it was really fun. (:

Glad me and hehan are friends now (see, hehan? I'm so nice. HAHA.) but brandy boy is angry with me. But oh wells. =/

-thheee eenndd. (:-

Missing the old times.

2008-07-26T01:12:00.000-07:00
I suddenly really miss the old times.
Like i feel that in Sec 1, we thought there were alot of problems, But this year its even more.
Last year, the class was more united and all. i feel, that is.
Hah. The emp concert was a blast..
Will it ever be the same? ):
I keep staring at the pictures from last years emp and like. got the shock of my life..
How people have changed.. Even if its not within our class. ): I miss the old them like. so much. ):
Unfortunately, some have got influenced. The ones who influence them are still as childish, selfish and two-faced as ever.. But i don't hate nor dislike them cause they are actually really nice people. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATIN AND CYRUS!! ((:

I think i've been adding unnecessary stress and pressure on myself. But i can't help it.
Then when i think about it, i find that i'm really stupid, getting stressed and upset about nothing.
I have major issues man. Hahaha.

I feel much better. The past week i've been rather down in the dumps. ):
Thanks to my friends, I feel much much better. ((: Thanks. :D I owe you guys like. Big time.

For the past couple of weeks, i've been meeting up with Jordan and Destin once a week to study.
I think it does help. (: it also helps me get my mind off stuff cause with them, i feel at ease. (:
Thanks Hui Yi darling, Jaime and Yu Shan for hearing me out. haha.

Okay.

-THE END- (:

2008-07-25T08:33:00.000-07:00
I wanna thank Jordan and Destin for being my study buddies through the common test. xD

Been rather down recently. My good friends know why and i don't think the rest of the world needs to know? So ya. Haha. Got nothing much to post. (: I'll do Li xUan's questionmagigy thing another day. Sigh. Tomorrow i've gotta get up early just to go for investiture~~ ):
Better go sleep now. (: Goodnight!

lalalalalala. xD
THE END.
BYE BYE.

Its up to you.

2008-07-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

Why wouldnt i just get rid of it?
If i didn't still love it, i would have gotten rid of it.
Its amazing how something that causes hurt can be so precious to someone else, isn't it?
How difficult it is to let go of something you've had for a long time.
tolerating with the exasperating long lasting pain it brings.. for those few moments of good memories..
That no matter how few and little compared to the pain it brought. could brought so much joy, even just having it.
Over time, the pain grows on you..
And you find that.. at your neediest moments.. The most valuable.. is never there.
Thats when I start to see the other wonders. Others as precious.
But none that would replace it..
Its so hard to get it to say something. That. Sometimes you just wonder. whether the pain is worth it. You doubt its presence and who's side its on..
Its up to you to decide. If you want to end this, just say the word.. I know that you're very angry. It would cause you no pain. Its the best time, isn't it?
Funny. How one would willingly give up her heart and bear the pain.
So the other wouldn't get hurt.
Time heals all wounds. & the sea is still vast.
Everything will end and everything will heal.
So it just depends on when..
Its up to you. i'll respect your decision.
Don't say you'll stay because of my words.
Follow your heart. Just. tell me.
I give up.

LI XUANNN.. :( i'M SO SADDED. WHY DIDN'T YOU INVITE ME TO YOUR WEDDING WITH WEI WEI? xD
If my conscience is clear, i have nothing to be afraid of! :D haha. i love you, xuannie. But your boyfriend loves you more, eh? ahahaha. xD You are loved by wei wei!! xD

Thanks for all your support. (:

HAPPY 1 1/2 YEARS ANNI!

2008-06-30T02:11:00.000-07:00
(: HAPPIEST DAY OF 2008 SO FAR! (:
A.K.A Me and ZM Bao bei's one and a half year's anniversary!!

HAPPY ANNIVERSAY, BAO BEI!! (: 我爱你! <3>

Today turned out great.. (:
I listened in class and didn't get scolded at all.
Didn't bear with any nagging, yet. Nor any fights. ((:
Everyone helped do some xi zi for me.. (:
It was really sweet cause i was rushing and I was very tired. (: THANK YOU!! (:

Then. For the moment me, ys, zm, rl and jy had been waiting for!!
SAKAE-SUSHI~
Woohoo~! Hahaha. Like. YAY.
(: I treated bao bei to 4 plates of sushi. (:
I myself had 4. (:
Yu shan had.. I think only one plate along with a ale carte. I can't remember. it was terriyaki chicken or something. but it was really nice. :D
Rachel had.. 2 or 3 plates. ((: We exchanged one.
I think jaime had one plate and ale carte. like shan.
We laughed ALOT. made a complete fool outta ourselves.
Esp when we were calling for the bill and. the.. free water. HAHA.
VERY SHIOK. The trip was worth while.

After that we went shop shop a bit. Bao bei bought her mommy a pressy. very cute. haha.
Then headed to popular. For. I have no idea. I went in for about 2 minutes. =_= Haha. (:

Finally, our last stop. ):
NEOPRINTS!! (: Haven't had a group shot for a long time.
It was extra memoriable and special. It looked nice too. ^^
So fun. We decorated and all!! ((:

haha. Then i saw my senior (:
After having loads and loads and loads of fun, we ended our day and went home.. (:

Smoking is a bad habit!! but i'm not against people who do la. (:

Remember that i promise to stay strong.
If you promise to quit.
& thanks. (: For everything. (:
btw, i still owe you! and i really am sorry. xD

~~I really don't get alota guys.~~
Why is it you always expect the girls to give in?
Why are you so petty?
Its amazing how they can be close to girls and yet they chase away any guy thats easy to pick on when they come near you. urgh.
They're so hard to understand.
All so immature and childish. Whats their problem.
Sometimes, I think girls do the guys job.
That is just. so wrong. urgh. whats wrong with them.
Just. GROW UP.

omg.

2008-06-28T10:49:00.000-07:00
Oh my gosh.
I seriously. am. being. driven. up. the wall.
I cannot stand it. AHH!!

the only fun part was with my sister on the bus.
Stupid story. I won't even bother explaining. Anyway it was about jay chou and two ugly apeh.

My mom and grandma totally ruined my mood. ):
! @ # $ % ^ & * ( ) _ - + =
First was my mommy.
I went to hougang late.
My mom called me at 3+.
We arrived at 6+ cause we had to cook, makan, clean, wash and hang the laundry.
She woke up at 8 and scolded us for going so late.
She said she waited so long that she dozed off.
I know they're stressed and all. but. wth.
Then she came in to scold us about cooking bacon and not taking the clothes in.
So all my dad's clothes smell like bacon. Okay la. That one our fault.
After that, she shouted at us for taking so long to get ready and leave.
She shouted "IF YOU HATE THIS PLACE SO MUCH AND ITS SO HARD TO GO OUT TOGETHER AS A FAMILY, THEN JUST GET OUT!"
The way she said it was like threatening to chase us out.
My dad doesn't do that. Unless he's very very very very angry and impatient.
But seldom. Otherwise, he'll speak to us very nicely.

My grandma and mom are on cold war. HAven't been talking for weeks. My mom says my grandma picks on her. My grandma says my mom picks on her. So.. I'm the person in the middle. And my dad is not even in the circle.

My grandma.
Just now the moment i came back, she scold.
Ask why we come back 1+. and that we should have stayed there. (I alr told her we would come back?!?)
We said we took the last bus.
She said. don't bluff. 1+ no more bus.
Okay. So we were lying. But. urgh. =_=
Anyways, then after that she nagged saying that my parents got alot of money.
When they obviously don't.
She says that we don't need to say they don't because apparently, she knows everything thats going on. that they have alot of money but don't give her.
Then my dad passed me $100 to pass to her. first. He'll give her the rest later.
I tried to explain it to her. But she took it and said "ONLY 100??" Then she started saying how my parents don't care about her. and that even if they stayed under the same roof they wouldn't care and they'd ignore her and all the crap. She says it as if no one gives a damn about her.
Theres more. She nagged at me about bringing her two shirts that were not nice, not wearble, not ironed, crumpled, spoilt ( idon'tknowwhatshemeans ) and dunno la. Then i nicely offered to go back and change for her. She said "DON"t WANT!" she also said "you dont know how to choose. next time you want to go, i go with you. I ownself choose."
Go la. No one is stopping you. T_T
My sister went to buy midnight snack.
She kept bugging me to call her and all.
Then it brought her to the topic about.. laundry.
That we didn't wash full load.
Cause we forgot about the clothes in my parents room. By that time, i was so annoyed alr.

I dont know how much longer I can take this. How much worse could this get?!

Friends, Family, * and School?? I hope I can cope.. T_T
I am going crazy. bye bye!

So many things

2008-06-21T04:03:00.000-07:00
So many things have happened..
And the holidays have gone in a flash.
In the first week of holidays, we had our structured programme.
They make it sound so nice. To put it simply, technically, its just an extra week of school. haha. (:
Okay. Guess i have to post later or tmr or something. I gotta meet my parents in tm. haha. (:

2008-06-10T09:43:00.000-07:00
HIHIHI
WE ARE ALONE TOGETHER!
WE WATCHED WHAT A GIRL WANTS.
AND NESSA GOT ALL TEARY EYED.
AWWWWWW.
SHE THINKS BUTTERFLIES BREATHE THROUGHT THEIR
TOES.
SHE'S DUMB!
BUTTERFLIES DON'T HAVE TOES.
DUH!
OH, I TRIED TO SLIM WRAP HER.
AND I STUCK A BALL OF SCOTCH TAPE TO HER HEAD.

OH AND I SHAVED HER LEG.

XOXO,
THE BIG SISTER.
COME FIND ME AT THEABNORMALMAJORITY.BLOGSPOT.COM!
I HARDLY BLOG!=))

10 people 10 random facts

2008-06-05T05:29:00.000-07:00
I don't know why i'm so moody today. haha.
I've been awfully quiet the whole evening..
Marilyn was quiet too.
We both didn't really feel like talking.
Anyways, i think i'll start putting permission for my blog again.

here. i'm bored. I got chosen by Zhang Min and He Han. So. here goes.

Quiz: People who have been tagged have start with 10 random facts about themselves. At the end of the quiz , choose 10 people and tag them to do this quiz.

1.) I'm very ugly.
2.) I have a really low self-esteem level.
3.) When somethings missing or goes wrong, i get paranoid and panick.
4.) I am bored.
5.) I am daddy's little girl.
6.) I love my friends and family.
7.) I hardly feel hungry. its more of. "mouth itchy" it looks nice to eat or i just feel like munching.
8.) I blush very easily.
9.) I think i'm flirt alot. but i try not to.
10.) I like scrambled eggs with ketchup

and the 10 people are..
1.) Seehwee.
2.) Marilyn Low.
3.) Celeste Lee.
4.) Sebrina Kwa.
5.) He Han. ( again )
6.) Li Xuan.
7.) Yu Shan.
8.) Rachel Lee.
9.) Zhang Min. ( again )
10.) Jaime Yeo.

The end.

2008-05-29T05:39:00.000-07:00
nothing much to say.
stay strong people. ;D
LOL!
Really. nothing to say.
BYE.

Getting too much to handle.

2008-05-25T04:02:00.000-07:00
With so much things in my head, is it getting too much to handle?

As much as i'd like to bottle it up, and as wei qi says, burst like a balloon when i'm filled enough, blogging is another option apart from crying my eyes out. Trust me. Its not for pity nor for sympathy. I just need somewhere to let it out. Its for me. not for you. See no evil! x_X

Family?
moving house.
I'll be moving in a week.. And the things have yet to be completely packed..
Barely packed at all, in fact..
The time constraint is killing me..
parents.
My parents are getting so stressed up,
that we have become their life size stress ball.
I don't blame them.. Their really stressed..
I'm actually really really worried for them..
grandma.
and for my grandma too..
Chances are she'll barely be living with us anymore..
no money.
how bout the financial burden?
What if it never lightens..
I plan to work with celeste darling during the hols just to lighten it a little.
A couple of hundreds could go a long long way.

Studies? My second priority.
I have to buck up.
Set my priorities right.
But why does it seem that everything is going completely wrong and out of control?
The harder i study, the worse the results.
perhaps i'm studying wrongly.
And my attention span is too narrow.
I need to concentrate.
I should study harder for the next half of the year.
I really want to get into my desired class.

Friendship problems? oh no.
with all these major problems going on, its the worst thing to be stuck in the middle.
In other words, i'm in the worst postition..
My heart really hurts to see them all like that..
Why can't they just STOP?
Like.. why hold grudges?
Everyone has two sides to them..
Why only see the bad sides and point out mistakes?
can't we see the good in them?
Stop badmouthing.
Stop being hypocrites.
Just keep your promises.
Don't betray..
Simple things like these could make such a big difference.
Its amazing how a friendship that takes years to harvest and blossom..
Can be shattered in a split second..
even if its just one nasty word used..
I love them all so much.. I only wish i could do more to help them see the tiny misunderstandings
that have led them to such big problems..
With jealousy brings anger
with anger brings hatred.
with hatred brings the end of a friendship;
All due to a tiny misunderstanding?

Teenage life? hell no.
Becoming a teen? Not much help. at all.
With mood swings and immature thinking, it only gets my blood boiling.
I must learn to control!

With that,
Here's my list of to do's and problems:
-Complete homework
-Study
-projects
-CCA
-Music
-Classes
-Tuition
-Get a job
-Remedials
-structured programme
-packing
-family probs
-friendship probs
-Councillor duties
-Cambodia trip
* i might've missed out some.

what if.. i'm the one who's brought all this upon myself? Maybe this is all my fault.. ):
This terrible, horrendous, unbelievebly nightmare-ish period of my life. T_T

why can't there be 23 hours and 59 minutes of day!
I hope i have time.
I must juggle.
and. keep the happy-go-lucky personality, right? (:
jia you, vanessa. X)
okay. I feel a little better. Gotta go back to packing later.
Then do math homework, pack bag..
And back to packing. my day ends at 11. (:
Bye!

god. (:

2008-05-24T05:11:00.000-07:00
This morning was so screwed up..
I felt angry and upset..
Cause i overslept.
Then i got a big scolding form my parents.
And i kicked a big fuss.
Then i felt really bad..
My piano teacher is really angry at me now.

But i attended cell group at JC's house. (:
It was reaaalllyy fun.
So thank you Shayne*, jordan*, Winnie*, Xuan Jie, Gerrard, Wye kiet ( i have no idea how you spell it. =X), de hui, Judia, Vanessa, Susan. (:
They cheered me up loads. esp the ones with *.
Hahaha.
Jordan was like taking a tune and putting random lyrics to it about what he wanted to eat for dinner. =_=
So funny. (:
Shayne was also trying to play the guitar but... okay. no comment. HAHA.
Jordan went out of tune so many times while attempting to sing some songs. AHAHAHA. lol.
Then they went for dinner at central and i went home. (:

Today's cellgroup helped alot.
And i really felt the prescence of God.
it actually felt really really good.
Like. it gave me strength and courage to overcome what i'm going through.. (:
Anyways, i still need time to consider my religion.
I don't have the time to commit and attend service and stuff. =/

##confusion.akiller.