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Thursday, November 26, 2009 { 7:14 AM }

Hey hey hey. Must leave a tag okay! :) Restarted the tagboarddd~

Past few days made a lot of new friends. :}
Initially, the ones who allwaaayyyss disturb mee. xD
Esp mus, always say i jay walk -.- that was ONCE okay! X)
But anyways, they're a bunch of really nice guys actually :]
Been talking to Naufal, Adi, Zam & Qayyum (esp). Hahah.
Character and personality, all same same but different. Super cute. ^^

Veerrry fun people. :]

Anywaysss. Missing the Cambodia people loaaddss. They left on the 23rd of November 09 and coming back on the 3rd of December 09. :] I'll go fetch them! :D:D My sebrina, spencer, zafrul, qayyum, tze xin, diyana and sin wai! :) Wonder how they're doing there.. :(

Time passes super fast, i realise. ><
Next year i'll be sec 4. :x
Sigh. :((

Graduation night 09.
not too bad! it was quite a bore at the beginning. No surprise. it's not our grad night. xD
& not to mention i messed up my speech when i repeated half a line.
But i followed what Spence said. Just apologise and continue (Thanks, sista. love ya loads. :))
So after that all went well.
Received compliments on my speech, which i'm very much thankful for. :]
Esp, Mr kaur :)
Also, complimented on dress, but i totally don't agree! But thanks for the sweet remarks anyway :)
Thanks Aaron for sending me home :D
Took lotsssaa pictures.
Really will miss the graduatesss! Esp the nosy sec 5s. x)

This year didn't get to go Cambodiaa...
Don't even talk about it. The forbidden 'C' word.
You have nooo idea how depressed i am about it.
Mrs Ong said maybe go next year June. I was elated. seriously.
Talked to mom about it. & she DIDN'T AGREE. :(
but i've really never wanted anything so much. So i'll stand up for it this time.
Try my luck, cause i really really think they're worth it. :(
I miss chres so much.. the kids.. :'(
Okayy. rather not talk about it. ><

Had Hives 3 nights ago or so. :)
It's the most irritating crap you could ever get, seriously.
worse than CHICKEN POX okay! ><
It was realllllyyyy itchy and stuff.
It's like mosquito bties, but alot of them join together to form patches. and they can spread over your limbs. So it's digusting. ><
I didn't wanna go doc. But second day i couldn't take it. It was just. uncomfortable. itchy..
& when i stood up to go doc, i couldn't. I had like. rush of blood and my whole body went cold.
Almost collapsed!
I struggled into a cab and mommy brought me to the nearest clinic.
So they said i have hives... the chim name is.. ute.. something something. xD
Well it cause low blood pressure for me, that's why i almost fainted.
So just gotta take my meds on time :D
been feeling kinda tired thougghh :(
Anywaysss. They gave me two meds. Anti something and a steroid. and Calamine lotion :D
So i'm depending on it now to keep it off. But the doctor says i'll be alright in a jiffy. :))
So no worries, people. :D

Okieeee. Gotta go~ Post another time. Credits to ZAMEERUL~ For pestering me to update. x)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 { 4:54 PM }

I feel so bad for not going to school daddy seems like he’s hopping mad. And I’m soo dead. I’m sorry mommy and daddy! :( I promise that I’ll go to school tomorrow :) really! :( Sigh. Gotta do my own self study I guess. Feels horrible.

Thursday, November 5, 2009 { 5:45 AM }

I'm pekcek. Officially. To the max. I don't know what to do.
I don't want to hang on, but i don't want to let go.
I don't want to hurt anyone, but i can't just leave them.
I really wanna do better, but I can't give up my year of hard work..
I wanna not feel this way, but i just can't help it.
I don't want them to feel that way, but i don't know how to help..

Is there anyway to not hang on, let everyone be happy, help them, be there for them - without being the cause of mayhem, do well, and not feel this way all at the same time?

How now, brown cow? Sigh.

Sunday, November 1, 2009 { 5:22 AM }

It couldn't get any shittier.
Anyways, decided to drop to subscience.
I'm hanging on. :)