Thursday, July 19, 2007
{ 4:56 AM }
Just.....
forget it.
All you had to do was to say.
Anyway.. WTF!! Guys don't understand girls la. And so what if a girl has her period?! don't need to go around and say right! Its damn rude can. Its embarrassing. And its being immature to do that. Its no surprise that she was pissed.
Why doesn't anyone like chinese anyway? it seems half the class is elsewhere during chinese lesson. Shes better then Li lao shi, a.k.a LMM so why is it that its still the same? And the teachers don't seem to understand that the more they shout at us, the more we will rebel. Someone has to tell them that..
These few days have been hell for me. I've got counsellor duties, Girl guides, east division day, school, assemly concert, costumes, planning and on top of that i have tuition, piano, guzheng and i have to create a bank account to insert my eagles award inside by this monday. And i have no time. I also have to do homework, weekend assignments and more. This has become part of my eveyday life. Now, my parents are taking me out of tuition and expecting me to do my work on my own, and do peer tutoring. Its gonna be tough. My parents are nagging to me about all of this, as if i don't have enough pressure. I've also been losing alot of things, been careless and forgetful because of all this. now whaT?? the stress is overwhelming. Honestly. I need a break. On top of all of that, i've got school stuff. Lots of school problems. A lot of things going through my mind..
I wanna find someone to confide in, but i'm scared i'll disturb them too much.. i feel that its unfair to talk about myself too much. it becomes as if i'm thick skinned, self-centred and arrogant.. but i think its ok for others to confide in me and talk throughout the whole conversation about themself.. i'm fine with it.. its kinda nice to hear what other people do and let them let it out so they'll feel better. It gives you a sense of satisfaction too.. The funny thing? I console and cousel others, give them advice and tips when I don't even apply it to myself. I have other people repeat what I said to them before and tell me to do what I had told them at that point of time.. But I somehow get the feeling its totally different.
You know how it feels when you find that sometimes no one understands you? I'm sure many of us have been that way.. I myself have been that way.. But by confiding in my friends I find that we have lots in common, and i'm not the only one.. Cause they'll always be there for me.. for that i wanna thank my darling Shan and my dearest Seehwee and of course my other darling, Afiqah.. hahaha. Thank you guys loads.. :)
Dance practice rocked.. haha.. alright i gotta go now.. here we go again. The process of stressful-ness..... alright.. byee~~!
